some people aren't angry. rather, anger is rammed to the core of their being. their anger is beyond the lines of rationality, logic and nature. anger is their reality like despair is for some and hopelessness for others. in their anger they suffer more than others do due to it. they are as much a victim of it as others in their lives. what might be the root of such raw anger that nothing matters when put against it? neither friendship nor love. what are they angry about? others? life? circumstances? I think more than anyone they are angry at themselves. because it's easier to forgive others than ourselves. sometimes, we don't even know that we fight not the world but ourselves, I guess that's what makes us bitter as life passes us, fighting a fight in the dark, not knowing what are we fighting, what is the fight about, what is the fight for.

and is it possible to be angry on someone who suffers all of it? no. though, it might be tiring and heartbreaking to be around but all you have for them is warmth and compassion.
to get rid of bitterness, you have to meet it with sweetness not more of its own kind.

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In a world of
darkness and despair,
I wish that
you never lose hope.

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I have died mentally...Multiple times
You can see the uncertainty in the depth of my eyes,
My heart is in a difficult war with my mind..
Because I am not strong enough to leave the past behind⚡

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I wish you
with despair
and the longing
of the impossible.

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My mind is full of despair
Leaving me in a state unable to bear

Making it hard to overcome the fears
And to shun all the negative affairs.

For I am trying to embrace my life as it is,
To relieve myself from all the snares.

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At times situation arises,
When you are completely low
And still you have to work,
For your loved ones.
You feel to close yourself in a room,
But the situation doesn't allow.
Once agin you have to compromise,
With your heart and feelings.

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A vision of tranquility--
An acme of gaiety.
Smiling, laughing.
Heart in tears.
A fake facade,
Shrouding verity--
Despair, devouring her,
Whole.

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कुछ समझ नहीं आ रहा...
क्या बिखर रहा है,
क्या समेटना चाहती थी,
कुछ समझ नहीं आ रहा...
क्या छूट रहा है,
क्या संजोना चाहती थी,
कुछ समझ नहीं आ रहा...
क्या खो चुकी हूँ,
क्या पाना चाहती थी,
कुछ समझ नहीं आ रहा...
ज़िंदगी के उस मोड़ पर हूं
जहां समझदार तो बहुत हूँ
लेकिन राह कौन सी है,
कुछ समझ नहीं आ रहा...

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