Forgetting Hurts

Cigarettes in my hand,
her name on my lips.
I swear I’m trying to forget,
but she lingers in the smoke.

Every drag tastes like her,
every exhale feels like loss.
Maybe forgetting isn’t letting go
maybe it’s just loving in silence.

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"The Last Act of Love"

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“Refined in Pain”

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Beneath the weight of silence,
I carry wounds too deep to show.
In the quiet, where shadows linger,
I'm lost in places no one knows.

The night wraps tight around my heart,
Its grip a comfort, yet a curse.
Tears fall in secret, quiet streams,
Each one a story unrehearsed.

I wear my scars like fragile armor,
Invisible to passing eyes.
But in the dark, they burn like fire,
Whispering truths I can't disguise.

Still, somewhere beyond this aching haze,
There’s hope, faint as morning light.
I’ll find it in the dawn, perhaps,
And make it through another night.

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You studied the pages, became a scholar,
Yet never turned the gaze within,
Words of wisdom filled your mind,
But left your soul unread, untouched.

You tread the sacred halls, in temples, mosques,
Seeking truth in every prayer,
Yet the doors of your own heart remain unopened,
Where the deepest truths lay bare.

You chased the light in distant skies,
But overlooked the flame inside,
A world of knowledge at your feet,
Yet your own soul, you did not guide.

In seeking answers far and wide,
You missed the whisper deep within,
For the greatest journey ever told,
Begins and ends beneath your skin.

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In the shadows, you stand alone,
A quiet soul, a heart of stone,
No one worries, no one sees,
The burden you carry with such ease.

"I've got it," you whisper, though broken inside,
Drowning in struggles, yet you hide,
You figure it out, you always do,
But who will figure out the pain in you?

Strong, they say, a pillar of grace,
Yet they don't see the tears you erase,
The nights you crumble, the silence you keep,
As the weight of the world quiets you to sleep.

Love, to you, is a distant dream,
A fleeting touch, a quiet gleam,
You hold onto smiles, the softest of sighs,
For in these moments, love never dies.

You don't ask for much, just a little care,
Searching for love that’s never there,
In every gesture, in every touch,
You find what you need, though it’s never enough.

The quiet tragedy you carry alone,
Is the search for love that’s never shown,
In the smallest of things, you make your home,
But deep inside, you’re still alone.

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I’m over you this time, I really mean it,
I can see your face, and I don’t feel a thing.
The pull between us is gone, just a memory,
But when I look back, it’s not you I see.

I see myself, lost in the love we had,
But now, when I look at those photos, I’m sad.
I used to beg for you to come back to me,
Now I just want the person I used to be.

I was hooked on you, like a drug I couldn’t quit,
Ignored all the warnings, fell deep into it.
But now I’m free, I’ve cut the ties,
Yet I miss the joy, the light in my eyes.

I’m never gonna consume this drug again,
Never gonna fall in love again.
I miss the laughter, the color, the thrill,
But now it’s all gray, and the world stands still.

They say love’s like a drug, with a heavy price,
I lost myself in you, and now I realize.
You took the life out of me, left me feeling dead,
And now I’m begging, not for you, but for me to repair.

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My goal is to grow dangerous every day,
More dangerous in spirit, with burning pain,
More dangerous in body, breaking every cage,
More dangerous in wealth, with ruthless gain,
More dangerous in mind, driving me insane.

Each morning I rise, heartless and bold,
Transforming myself, turning ice from gold.
In one year’s time, you'll barely see,
The person I was, replaced by who I’ll be.

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When you find your poison, sweet and dark,
You drink it down, it leaves a mark.
Each sip a tear, each gulp a sigh,
You drink, you know it makes you die.

The pain is comfort, cold and near,
In this hurt, your heart finds fear.
Addiction's kiss, so hard to fight,
You drink and sink into the night.

You keep on drinking, cup runs dry,
Yet still, you drink, though you may die.
In this poison, you find your end,
A lonely path, no heart to mend.

You can't let go, you can't break free,
Till it takes all, your soul, your plea.
In the darkness, you finally rest,
Your poison won, it did its best.

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With shadows deep inside your mind,
And a heart that’s torn apart,
How can you face the days ahead,
With all their endless wars?

Yet in this darkness, strength is born,
In every tear, a spark.
For even with a shattered soul,
You find the light within the dark.

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