Silence that screamed!!

My pleasant night loses the moon again
As the nightmares make me go insane.
Falling bricks sound as try of suicide
I am now afraid of my own dark side.

Knocks on my door reminds of violence
Seeing her bleeding body made me tense
Her muffled cries and attack on organ
left me senseless. How did he call it fun?

How to forget when it is always there
Appearing darker than my skin layer?
They hurt me and I know there is no end
I am lost somewhere without any friend.

Tonight will be my last night of this life,
Death as my husband and I be his wife.

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When the damage is done, the war is over, YET Nothing is ever over, It’s all around you. Are you lucky to be alive? Or too broken to continue?

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" P. T. S. D. "

All those things that happened,
now forms horrific flashbacks and nightmares;
Violent images and uncontrollable thoughts of losing everyone
and everything I had, kept hitting me &
simply living was becoming a continuous challenge!

Sometimes it would get so worse that it felt like past had evaporated
and I am living those terrible moments again;
I was losing concentration, feeling disoriented
and I was forgetting where, who or what I was!

I look back and laugh gently at those who thought
my life was happy, my life was perfect;
But this debilitating mental illness had changed me,
crushed me from inside and I would never be the same!

Like a woodpecker that keeps poking into the wood;
Sadness pricked my body & entered into my soul;
Like a vulture that feeds on dead;
All that was eating me alive!

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Some times ;
It's better to open that door of your life ; that you sealed long ago .
Not because ; you want to make issue out of it but because you have to do it for your sake .
Sometimes for letting it go , you first have to face it and take stand for your emotions.

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Time for me to say goodbye,
As I make my way towards the sky.
Life has been too much for me,
Now it's time to leave it be.
Life isn't for everyone I now know,
So I'm saying goodbye before I go.

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When the damage is done, the war is over, YET Nothing is ever over, It’s all around you. Are you lucky to be alive? Or too broken to continue?

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I dread this date, I dread it every year
This is the date, that brings sadness and fear
This is the date, my life fell apart
The memories of that day, break my heart

So gullible, so trusting and so naive
Made me a target for them, I believe
What you both did, brings me despair
The feeling overwhelms me, it's too hard to bear

The sound of your laughter, the scent that you wore
The memory of me sobbing, naked on the floor
The horror of that day, haunts me in my wake
The flashbacks, the memories are too hard to take

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Every night ; I relive it .
Every morning ; I forgive .
Every day ; I let it go .

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Some people create a negative bubble to stay safe from the world due to the trauma they have faced which hampers their growth.World is a beautiful place.
Experience it's beauty and love💖

SEEK HELP!!
TAKING HELP IS TRUE STRENGTH
IT SHOWS THE COURAGE YOU HAVE TO FACE THE WORLD.
GOOD LUCK💝🤗
CREATE MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS

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To all those who are fighting and are on the verge of losing,

Don't give up. Whatever you are going through, say it out. 80% will not listen to you, but the remaining 20% surely will and will help you get through it. These 20% want you to win this fight. Their undying support and trust in you are the fuel you need to fight it. They never want to see you give up and end your life. Stick to these 20% because they are your true friends who are angels in a world full of devils. They have come forward to see you win and enjoy every little moment with you.

Never give up, I say never.

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