I want you to love me, like you used to do
I want this forever, just me, just you
I want the future, all the plans that we made
I want the spark to remain, I don't want it to fade

I want the memories old, I want the memories new
I want the confidence that we are strong, and we can make it through
I want the progress we've made, I want us to grow
I want the love and affection, I just want it to show

I want to be your world again
I want to be your light
I want to be your reason, I want to be your fight
I want the reassurance, that you still want me around
I want to be yours forever, because to you I am bound.

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You made me cry, but still I stay
There is so much, I wish I could say
My heart was bruised, now its broke
Watching all we built, go up in smoke

You lied to me, but still I stay
Finding that out, was hell today
I feel hurt, you've broken my trust
All my hopes, my dreams, they're crushed

You've caused me pain, but still I stay
I'm not saying, that this is okay...
But after it all, I'll take the highs with the lows
Because I love you too much, to let you go

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Your words are like knives, they cut me so deep
You show me no care, even when I weep
I'm used to being left alone, whilst I fall apart
Because no one gives a fuck about my bruised and fragile heart

So much coldness in your energy, I feel a knot of dread
That you will cut this relationship, cut it completely dead
I want to be appreciated, desired and loved back
Why is it so hard to love me? What is it that I lack?

I sit and wait patiently, for the old you to return
I hope that you aren't just another lesson, that I need to learn
I thought you were the one, I thought I found my happy end
I hope the love was real and wasn't just pretend

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I love you so much, I can hardly breathe
Because I wear, my heart on my sleeve
I want things equal, to get the same back
I want things better, to be back on track

Things with us swing, from high to low
I hide my hurt, I don't let it show
You push, and you pull, drives me mad
Maybe that's, what's making me sad

I flash back to the first time we met
All the laughter, the happiness, I'll never forget
Please hold me now, let it be okay
I don't want to lose you, I want you to stay

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You blow hot and cold, you have me confused
I feel like I'm breaking, my heart is bruised
Everything is fragile, it's falling apart
Breaking, my worthless delicate heart

I feel the space, the distance clear
I close my eyes, and out comes tears
Did you ever love me, or was it pretend?
I feel scared, scared that we will end

I want this to work, I can't let you go
I love you more than, you'll ever know
It pains me to feel, you no longer care
Please gravitate back to me, it's too much to bear

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Today has been a day from hell
I've gone completely into my shell
I feel my heart slowly starting to break
It's all getting too much. Too much to take

I want to hide away and not come out
I want to scream I want to shout
I want to stop crying and keep strong
Feeling like this? I can't carry on

So watch me crumble, watch me fall
Watch me stumble, watch me crawl
I'm giving up now, admitting defeat
It's time to admit, that I have been beat

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All of us have our toxic traits
Mines jealousy, mines self hate
Mine is the fear that, you'll soon get bored
Mine is the fear that, I'll be ignored

Mine is the fear that, my heart will break
Mine is overthinking that, I can't seem to shake
Mine is the fear that, you don't love me back
Mine is you seeing the qualities, I lack

Mine is the fear that, you'll meet someone new
Mine is the fear that, I will lose you
Mine is the fear that, you'll walk away
Mine is the fear that, you won't stay

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Only three days ago you were mine
You went home, everything was fine
Your my escape, my angel you said
Those words constantly run through my head

Now you've switched, you've been so cold
Forgetting all the words, you once told
A complete u turn, a possible end
Rejected, driven around the bend

Played with my emotions, I've fallen for you
Now I'm confused I don't know what to do
I was on a high, now I'm at an all time low
Please I beg you, please don't go

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So many things I wanted to say
So many thoughts I'm keeping at bay
So desperate just for someone to see
All the pain I hold, inside of me

I'm hanging on, just by a thread
Sometimes I wish that I was dead
I want to scream and say no more
These feelings I have cut to core

I'm a doormat, I hate who I am
Nothing ever goes to plan
I can't cope, I can't do it anymore
How do I get through this? I'm not so sure

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I want to say sorry to all that I know
I'm feeling depressed, I am feeling low
I'm never enough and destroy all I touch
I've tried to be strong but it's got to much

I can't shake this feeling, this feeling of despair
This feeling that no one, really truly cares
A constant struggle to, remain strong
I can't do it no more, I'm just plodding along

So I'm going to go, back into my shell
Because people is what I seem to repel
I just want to be happy, but the problem is me
Because all of us know, that I'm not worthy

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