// Swimming //
You don't need a mirror to hate yourself,
curled tonenails are telltale signs of a girl
who fakes her period.
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Things are in control — temperature, chlorine
except that sliding doors always lets slide
words — oxen, whale.
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We can never hide from our bodies.
We displace
all the water of the pool,
we fake our periods
so that we don't always find ourselves begging to be tolerated.
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You don't need a tailor's tape to hate yourself,
clingy bodysuits and dwindling orders
are telltale signs of girls wishing to be unseen.
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If all girls like me throw a pool party,
all the displaced water will be compensated
by our salty crying. Girls like me —
fringe bodies,
detachable parts of a big toy machine,
decorate big pools but never dip a foot.
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