"this house has been
holding its breath
since five years," he says
adjusting the ash-tray
on an exhausted teapoy

"i want to show you
something, Rose"
he says my name
and i unfold
like a cashmere sweater
on a late november morning ~

'finally...'
i sigh

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தீச்சுடரென ஞானம் அளித்துவிட்டு - அது
கடனென காணிக்கை கேட்கிறாய்
தீர்கக் கடலில் வெகுநாள் துழாவவிட்டு - பின்
துடுப்பை வலியப் பறிக்கிறாய்

காற்றிலாதோர் குழலும் இசைக்குமோ - செங்
கதிரிலாதோர் மலரும் அலருமோ
கருஞ்சேரிலாதோர் பயிரும் விளையுமோ - சீர்
சித்தமில்லாதோர் உயிருமிங்கு செழிக்குமோ?!

'விசையுறு பந்தினைப்போல் - உள்ளம்
வேண்டிய படிசெலும் உடல்கேட்டேன்'
நான் கருவிக்கொண்ட கருவியழித்து - நீ
குரூரமாக சிரிக்கிறாய்

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It's difficult to stop
When one word
Has many emotions
When one feeling
Has different expressions
& when it's just you
Daily as a new person.

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Wrinkled hands explore the smooth terrain,
here, her fingers remain,
As they DISCOVER a rusted box,
with no locks.
With all her might she opens,
To see cosily settled inside are some old tokens,
and a BANDAID
Her weak mind flashes hazy reels of a handmaid,
Patiently nursing open wound,
Her memory had marooned,
For seconds it was like COMING BACK HOME,
Then progresses Alzheimer's foam,
Memory discovered in seconds,
looses in progressing seconds.

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മറവിയുടെ ലോകത്തേക്ക് ചേക്കേറിയവർ

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I slipped into my sheets and beat the pillow a bit to let the air out. It is weird how we fluff up the pillows to make use of the deformable contents and feel comfort in the snug they acquire. Some disturbances make us feel in place and are not unwelcome for a change. Same cannot be said for an out of place key, or a lost wallet or that pair of glares you placed in a different place the other day.

To be fair I did not expect to find them in the fridge, but then it was not only the glares, you kept forgetting your pills, shoes, closing doors, opening windows and one day I saw you rushing hysterically away from me out the gate shouting and complaining of an intruder in the house.

Things changed pretty quickly.

I have to keep track of visiting hours, I used to remind you who I am every month, and now it happens every Sunday. I fluff the pillow a bit more on such nights to make it feel like your lap.

The comfort is missing.

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Thirty years back Mother taught her daughter how to cook food.
Now when Mother called up daughter to ask how to cook rice, daughter cut the call telling she is busy now!

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Just stay the same so that I can fall for you in love again in the same way and we don't have to apart.

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If the day shall come
that I forget you and all that we've become,
If the day shall come that I'm senile,
Just know because of the way you smile I'd fall all over again,
but if it happens to cause you too much pain, by all means, my dear, I hope you'll choose to find happiness elsewhere. You're the love of my life but if Alzheimer's should rob my memory of being your loving wife, please know I still only want you to be happy for the rest of your life.
~with love, your wife
~SacredInkedBlood
©2018

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