It is very easy to beat yourself up. It's high time you stop doing that. Pick yourself up. Keep pushing. Soon you'll see yourself where you want to be.
If you still have the courage to pull yourself up and push yourself harder this time... You are already a warrior for life and you have won.. Not on people around you... But yourself... You are your biggest strength. Win yourself. The rest will follow.
I hold my heart for chocolate, ice cream, pizza, rain, bubbles, starry sky, sounds of waves gushing, bed, sleep, couple of good friends for life and something that I cannot live without... love!