Before we tried to find beauty amidst the chaos,
A time when beauty was vivid and found unsearched;
I hope we met then.

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I'm sorry that you met me at my worst, my prayers for you are only countable;
Had you met me earlier,
I might have been better than I am now and maybe you would be happier than you are now.

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I hate it when i waited for you eight hours straight and all I get in return is "you shouldn't have "

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I am a one stupid girl who enjoys late night calls, a stupid girl who chose to hurt her own feelings for a guy who mocks at her honesty, a stupid girl who doesn't know how to stop loving, a stupid girl who is unloved.

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From Strangers we part as Strangers.
Strangers with regrets and strangers with memories;
Strangers with empty hands and strangers with heavy hearts;
Strangers who don't fight for the things they love and strangers who chose to stay as strangers.

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I want to be fearless, i want to live.

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We are all but souls wandering in search of where we belong.

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I hate myself for hoping that you will do the saving.

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I hate you for never knowing that i miss you and i hate you for never trying to find the reason for my altering moods.
I hate you for thinking that i'll be able to sleep listening to music and to movies and i hate you for not knowing that it's you who is my sleeping pill.
And i hate myself for being too attached to you and believing that you might recognize that I'm aching so much. But mostly i hate myself for hoping that you will do the saving.
- 02/03/9

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How many more promises are we making and breaking,
Before our hearts wear out and our souls drench in ache?
I need something sweeter than " apologies " and something deeper than " sorry "
To make me believe that happy endings exist.
Promises and happy endings are a language unspoken here,
They are written and painted all over the skies
But no one ever does the keeping, Expressed by words and hardly, by actions.


I guess I don't need this kind of hurting to help me grow
Before I grow old and my hands are weary can i escape;
From this affair and from this wretched soil i stand upon?

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