Didn't know, myself enough ever before...
You made me know me .
Been escaping from attachment since before....
Cause Was too afraid of detachment.
Been escaping from you too,
When I found me being in love with you already.
Well...I couldn't but run out from the thought of being yours forever.
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Do you really think it's easy ?
Being in love and not being able to see!
Being in love and not being able to talk!
Being in love and not been in contact!
Being in love and behave like strangers!
I don't how it's been for you being not with me...
But for me it's like dying and borning just to pretend you've never been mine.
Hours,Days,months,years passes.....
and my affection for you in each passing second is on just mode of countless!
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There's a time when you act like you don't care. And there's also a time when you just really don't, even though you want to.
So strange.!-
From cutting cakes to chopping dreams,
I lost out on slices of me!
From blowing candles to blowing out inner light,
I become the darkness of me!
From wishing upon shooting stars for cravings,
to wishing away the loved one,
I dragged out the wrong urge for me!
From waiting for August,
to frightening it's arrival,
I became the betrayer of me!-
Yes, this is the same person who left you earlier and begging for you now .
Yes, this is the same person who hate you and love you like paradise also.
Yes, this is the same person who acted your existence doesn't matter,and miss you like hell!-
Am I seek?
Am I psycho?
Am I weird?
Am I so ugly?
Am I a tachycardia patient?
Am I an idiot?
Am I not okay?
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Then why am I behaving so !!!?-
Hi ! How are you ?
It has been a very long time since we talked !
I didn't even get the chance to love you , and you're gone!
You didn't even put a little efforts to be mine, and I'm done !
Something is definitely wrong!
Hope you are better now!
I just forgot to tell you that.......I love you ! Always have, always will.
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I want you to be in my lethargic Sunday afternoons ,
and not in my hectic Monday mornings,
I want you to be in my 3a.m. soltitude,
and not in my 3p.m. multitude,
I want you to be in my darker truths,
and not in my lighter lies,
I want you to be in my sweet dreams,
and not in my nightmares,
Cause I want you to be amalgamated in my essence of soul,
and not only in my chronicles .-
Have we ever seen monsters?
'No', the answer would be.
But, Yes darling, monsters do exist and they look alike the poor girls world!!
A proverb says ,
People ravages world!
But here, her world ravaged that naive soul.
HaHa little shocked !
At an early age of twelve , she slearned to live solo, when her fellows were surrounded by a lot more loved ones.
At fifteen, when it was time be blessed with love ,she was blessed with a unfortunate curse .
When she was 16, she was gripped so tightly..... Oh wait wait, not to hug but to kick even more cruelly.
Sssssssshhhhhhhh!
The growing up little soul is still not out of being tortured,reproached,felt assassinated!¡
And when it's time to seek support and love, she wishes for death!
Thus the poor little soul ends but not the story and the monster as well.
YEs, she still lives with her monster.
TO BE CONTINUED ______
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