"Non-doership" does not mean "do nothing" It means 1. That thing will still happen, no matter what you do 2. That thing will still happen, even if you do nothing 3. There are things you think you are doing, but it's not really you There are many unseen components to any outcome
you are on a very special path - a hero's journey I can only imagine all the, inner-work you are doing. Here's sending you the strength, and the patience you will need as you learn to embrace uncertainty
The message of illness An unexplained itch (scraping off parts of you): Where is the itch? Do you like (or speak badly of) that part of your body? Are you uncomfortable with that part of you? Start with self-love & self-care. The more you dislike your face, feet or thighs, the more they will itch.