My voice trembled as I tried to say
The silence swayed and my words went to the grave
I felt weak I felt broken something inside was killing me
There was sufficient air bt I
struggled to breathe
Thoughts raging through me
Finding existence, solace or more I can say, love
A turmoil of phrases pierced the heart every time I bit my tongue
Cause may be I see the end I can feel the coldness and more than that I can see another world
Adding the darkness and yet suffering to recover the light
I guess could I now ever tell u how much it hurts
Or how much I love
Cause I have learned well to mask
Cause I have learned well to stay calm
N may b it is all useless may b I m useless writing a story that didn't even have a plot
I wish I could tell u that I fear losing u
I wish I could tell u that I want to spend time with u
I wish I could tell u how I can see u getting detached from me
I wish I could tell u how vulnerable and anguished I feel
Bt I know it is of no use u won't get it ever
So m fading from the diminishing light of your interstellar.

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As the sky sweeps into the darkness
And the holy nature goes to sleep.
The inner conscience inside me awakes
Asking me,"Who I am and what did I achieve?"

The ordeals that now covers rust.
The glaze that I used to be.
Am I that congruent person
or the dust of time has covered me?

I hush myself and try to fix
the uprooted jumble piece of me,
Skimming through the pages that I inked.
The ones I decorated, the ones I just finished.

Gradually the vision gets blurred
and I hear the rhythm rising to the peak.
"This cannot be my end", I remind myself
As I eventually doze off to sleep.

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राह लम्बी है पथिक
रुकना नहीं है विकल्प
ऐबों से उठकर ओ मुसाफिर
खुद में खुद की खोज कर।

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At night my mind floats.
From the devil to the lover you left on the shore.

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Looking back all we see
Is lessons learnt and read
With hopes and beliefs we look forward for a better self and a year to come.

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I tried filling my voids with my strings
But I couldn’t understand that those were the one giving me wings.
I left my home & my dear ones.
Cried alone with suffocated lungs.
All my life I complained
About my dreams that went in vain.
But here I am at this stage
Finding peace in this lonely train.
So one last time lets rejuvenate,
The happy endings & The mistakes
Cause even if I failed
I proved loved can be insane.
No matter when the things go wrong
you have to hold up once for the last song.

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I was grooving to the hymn of our love,
But to tell what was going inside was tuff.
Hands stained with cuts of the string
That goes entangling you and me.
The more I think of easing it, the more it gets deep.
The more I think of messing it, the more it gets impended.
A turmoil of emotions was raging through me,
I keep smiling hoping may be someday you could see.
I stare by when the world laughs at me;
Hoping one day you could save me from falling to the knees.
Probably I am high as it feels so numb and dizzy;
The dingy clouds shows the time when everything was like Disney.
You use to be the most fragile and delicate person,
Am I responsible for the one you have become?
As each day passes by,
The pile of my questions gets high.
I want to run far away & hide
But then also you are the only place
I knew, to get comfort & solace.
Oh! Your love is killing me from inside.
The tales of truths and lies.
Your love has found ways to my veins and it’s hard to breathe
I think you have become the opium for me.

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To all the things that scares you
To all the things that limit your sky
To all the boundaries you apply
To all the fears you hide
Let it go let it flow
Don't let your insecurities define what world means to you
Instead write new theories that defines you
Don't let the dice decide where your path is
Don't let the assumptions coincide within
The journey is vast but not the time
Things will corrode as well as shine
But don't settle for something that kills you from inside
Instead fight for what is right
The concept of truth is a lie
The world is a mirage and you need to standby
Don't get faded to the dunes beside
Don't get allure to the shiny spines
You girl ! You don't need to hide
Instead wear your scars with heads up high.

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To all the things that scares you
To all the things that limit your sky
To all the boundaries you apply
To all the fears you hide
Let it go let it flow
Don't let your insecurities define what world means to you
Instead write new theories that defines you
Don't let the dice decide where your path is
Don't let the assumptions coincide within
The journey is vast but not the time
Things will corrode as well as shine
But don't settle for something that kills you from inside
Instead fight for what is right
The concept of truth is a lie
The world is a mirage and you need to standby
Don't get faded to the dunes beside
Don't get allure to the shiny spines
You girl ! You don't need to hide
Instead wear your scars with heads up high.

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Have you encountered your worst fears ever ?
When you feel like crumbling into your bed.
When your heart aches as you move ahead.
When you feel like the end is near and your mind is struck on one question.
Why???
When everything goes wrong and you dont have the guts to stay strong.
You know it right from the starting but was soo scared to admit it,
And all of a sudden when it comes true.
All the shivers and tremblings runs through.
Feels like god has blocked all your SOS calls.
In a second all your memories seems false.
Your plans and backups all seems so useless.
You poured all your heart into something that was already dead.
Ohh!! Am afraid I wanna run away.
This world has shown me the worst of my days.

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