You thought it to be finally an end
But as usual, it starts again.
you feel like you’re stuck in hell
an infinite loop of guilt and pain.
You thought you had buried all of this
But it resurrects again from the grave
You feel like you will never be out of this
How hard you try to fight and be brave

You may hide it or pretend fine
But Deep inside, you want to die
Even You can hold your feelings for sometime
but the more you control, the later more you cry
So, listen, never stop believing in yourself
Keep fighting, sooner you will fly.

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ये थोड़ी सी आजादी
ये खुला आसमां
उड़ने को है ये सारा जहां
मैं पंख फैलाए
उड़ जाऊं, उड़ जाऊं
कभी पहाड़ों में अपना डेरा डालूं
हवा के संग बहता जाऊं
और थक कर नदी किनारे रुक जाऊं

डूबते सूरज का पिछा करूं
और हर सुबह
सूरज के साथ नए रास्ते पर निकल जाऊं
ना कोई मंजिल की फिक्र हो
ना रास्तों की परवाह
ना घर लौटने की जल्दी
ना इस भीड़ में खोने का डर
मैं बस उड़ जाऊं, हवा के झोके संग

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How can not I argue
With the person who says
"you are not brave"
I have seen you fighting your demons
And making out alive from critical situations.

I have seen you many times /
Standing up for yourself /
Where everyone was against you.
I know, you are brave /
And I believe,
you will again make it happen.

And Yes, you too are beautiful .

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This is the story of a man who was standing on a drowning boat in the middle of the lake. The boat was sinking because he himself had put a hole in it. He was standing on the boat and watched it sink. He was not even trying to protect himself. He was lost in his own world. It seemed he had given up on his life.

People across the shore were not even bothered to go there for help. They were just filming so they could have a story to tell. Meanwhile, I was also standing there and watching him, but from inside I was rooting for him to at least jump into the lake and try to swim across the shore. Every part of me wanted him to give it a try. Even if he failed and died, at least he would die fighting. But by any chance, he succeeded and came across the shore. He would have a new life.

I left there early because I did not want the end of the story, or you can say I couldn’t see him drowning. I deeply wanted him to fight off his fears, his demons, and most importantly, himself.

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// I Hate You //

When I say, I hate you
I don't mean, I hate you
I just mean, I miss you more/

I hate, you are not here :
holding me on my worst days/

I hate, you are far away :
& distance between us is growing/

I hate the fact, I am loosing :
& I can not control/

I hate you more!
…

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We were never in a relationship
But when we held hands, it felt a lot like love

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लेखक की कहानियों में तुम पाओगे
ढेरो उलझे सवाल
जिन सवाल का जवाब आधा ढूंढा जा चुका है
पर उन्हें पूरा लिखने की कोशिश सालो से चली आ रही है

*Full Piece in Caption*

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खून पसीना सब निचोड़ दिया है
जितनी जान थी, गज़ल में सब जोड़ दिया है

वक्त मेरा थोड़ा कमज़ोर सा है
लिखना तो दूर, मैंने पढ़ना भी छोड़ दिया है

दिल मेरा थोड़ा गुस्ताख़ सा है
नए पुराने रिश्ते, मैंने हर धागा तोड़ दिया है

सफ़र मेरा थोड़ा डगमग सा है
किसको सुनाऊं सिकवे, मैंने अपना रस्ता मोड़ दिया है

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I wish you were here with me.

- A Seven word short story

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सारी दुनिया से गिले- शिकवे इक तरफ़
तुम्हारा मुझसे खफ़ा होना इक तरफ
दुनिया तो बस ढोंग करती है
तुम्हारा मुझ पर प्यारा लुटाना इक तरफ़।

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