saddest traumas come from the
people you thought you owned
not from the ones you
tagged as 'strangers'

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every place where we were together became 'our place',
every song that we sang together became 'our song',









but it's all past a million pieces of my heart,
still tryna find out where i went wrong.

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alongwith the tag of
'dumb witted'
comes the advantage of
least societal expectations

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•अहं•

हां अहं है हमें
बेगैरतों के भी
असली आकारों को
पहचानना चाहा।

हां अहं है हमें
बेरहमों पर भी रहम दिखाया
दिल तो पछताया
पर ख़ुद को हंसना
सिखाया।

हां अहं है हमें
बेसहारों को भी
खुलकर जीना
सिखाया।

हां अहं है हमें
बेज़ती को इज़्ज़त में
तपदील करना बखूबी
सिखाया।

हां अहं है हमें
बेचारा कहने और
कहलाने वालों की बुद्धि में
बदलाव लाया।

हां अहं है हमें!

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all they
see is the
half of you.
no one will
bother even if
you lose the
other half
of yours
that
carries
all the
pain,
sorrow
and weight.
you better embrace the
whole of yourself by yourself.

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hell she've been through,
they painted all her nights blue,
no one could've any clue,
just an admirer she needed,
then wonders she could do.

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I locked myself in a dark room
I held my embarrassed head down
and begun to shed my tears there,
just after that moment,
I became the ocean she threw a pebble into
to know its depth
the ripples of me touched her feet
and soothed her heart
but just to lessen the depth,
she started emptying me.
A few moments it took her to
empty me
because I was just a pond having
ego that of an ocean.
She just dried me up, I had nothing
left to soothe her but only the pebble
that was thrown by her
and thorns of the florets no more alive.
She tripped over my dead body
and ultimately hurt her own self.

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i wish to watch the moon
for a while,
but i'm afraid
for i might end up
watching you
for more than a while.

i'm afraid

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DANCE AGAIN
Synchronising with the melody
my feet move swiftly
even the malignant part was alive
maintaining the decorum, I feel like being a small child
too obsessed with the peace that I need no help
dreary feeling was gone somewhere
to dance once again, I dared
being called grotesque doesn't hurt anymore
change the topic man, I'm gonna get bored
emotions were all overrunning
and I? I was once again feeling stunning
they still find me strange and insane
but who knows how glad I'm after dancing again.

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...and remember,
crying can never be
gender-biased because
tears never know the
gender of the eyes
they flow through...

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