I can’t let it go.
The feeling of drowning
in my own chest;
filled with guilt? pain? pity?
I guess.

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I want it to stop
The self suffocating feeling which drowns me into myself and I get-
I get so lost, perplexed, exhausted, impatient and the list never ends
I want it to stop
The never ending comparisons my mind makes to pull me back
Back to a place I’ve always wanted to escape from
I want it to stop
The sudden depth my chest feels while walking, talking, eating, listening
Which tries to make me see myself, where I actually belong usually, below the crowd
I want it to stop

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If the whole world was watching I'd still dance with you...

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To the time I'm yet to spend
Stay put in the upper half
While I uphold the grain I've already spent
thinking about those who remain.

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and sometimes i feel, maybe, maybe there really is someone out there
waiting to have the exact moment planned in my head and tell me
"it was always you."

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If only I had background music in my life to help me pour my emotions in moments when I go blank.

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I don't wanna change the fact that I was once struck with infinite dimensions of my beautiful mind and precious heart which provided me with definitions of love I was unaware of.

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I bet it was not easy
to carry yourself to death.
I do not doubt your gut,
your courage,
it must have been a lot
that you had to take
light off your sight, life off lives.

(Full poem in caption)

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the sky she built with her
stars and constellations,

they turned it into a bright abysmal
stealing her precious dreams.

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in my heart I look to curse the entrance
in between the souls been taken care of
whose mortal selves chose to leave
a long, long ago.

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