Where are you my happiness?
In the whiff of money
patched on the papers?
In the flower of a girl
under the carnal flavours?
In the dish favourite
skulking on my taste buds?
In the tangible luxuries
lurking under pleasures?
In the fame and success
feeding on ego approbation?
In the what, on the which
you hid under, happiness?
In the void or the valid
you eclipsed under, happiness?
In the in or the out
you clouded under, happiness?
In to oblivion I lost in
In the pusruit of Happiness.

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Where are you my happiness?
In the whiff of money
patched on the papers?
In the flower of a girl
under the carnal flavours?
In the dish favourite
skulking on my taste buds?
In the tangible luxuries
lurking under pleasures?
In the fame and success
feeding on ego approbation?
In the what, on the which
you hid under, happiness?
In the void or the valid
you eclipsed under, happiness?
In the in or the out
you clouded under, happiness?
In to oblivion I lost in
In the pusruit of Happiness.

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As my chest about to explode with grief filled up within
As my brain spilling out of control with thoughts racing in
As my breath became heavier and ceased squeezing in
As my pulse became rampant that radiates through my skin
As my heart racing in pace, I forgot how to live
As my body tremble in sweat, I realised I can't live
Then, as I stare at the noose hanging from the fan
The noose stares back at me with a sly smile
Inviting me to embrace her skin around my neck
And rejoice the peaceful pain of Death

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You never let me read
You never give me heed
You never let me think
You drain my pen's ink
You quash my wisdom
You shackle my freedom
You slaughter my thoughts
You fasten my creative knots
You suck out my energy
You make me lifeless effigy
You invade my life
With a sharp pointed knife
To pierce me all over
Like a net leftover
While I yell in pain
I whisper my prayers
To Be Normal
To Be Healthy
To Be Normally Healthy Again.

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In the quest to beat men
She's dressing like man
In the quest to reach men
She's walking like man
In the quest to cross men
She copy the demeanour of man
She copy the language of man
She copy the gestures of man
And lost the essence of woman
In the quest for equality
She lost her fragrant quality
In the quest for oppurtunity
She lost her sacred purity
In the quest for empowerment
She lost her essence of divinity
In the quest for logic of strength
She lost her magic of love
Feminine, a music of life
Feminine, a beauty of humanity
Feminine, a selfless pure love
Feminine, a sweetness of sacrifice
Feminine, kept the humanity alive
From the invasion driven man's aggression
From the conquest driven man's obsession
Now lost its fragrance in the filth of competition
Lost its essence in the fight of superiority.

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Soliloquy of lonliness
I realise my darkness
With none to care
or concern my despair.
An orphan with family
A lonesome with friends
A single with lover
Destined my life to be.
As I lay on bed with heat,
struggling to breathe and eat,
One parent prefers irritation
over my helpless suffocation
One parent prefers their sleep
while I get weak and weep
Lover prefers to fight against me
while I fight with 102 F degree
Whom I thought my life lines
showed their true designs
What a disguise of affection
To dream of love, my affliction.

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To be accepted by society,
To survive the grim reality,
Afraid of ice cold world,
Man has come up
Adding filters to his life
Hiding his true self behind
The filters of pretensions.

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MEANING OF LIFE
What is the meaning of water
showering as pearls so fine?
What is the meaning of sunrise
stretching its wings of shine?
What is the meaning of air
breathing life in to thine?
What is the meaning of rainbow
laddering earth to cloud's shrine?
What is the meaning of love
that gives a taste of divine?
What is the meaning of emotions
juicing the mental wine?
What is the meaning of life?
Could you dare to define?
Long lost in your dirty little logic
You lost the taste of life's magic
Searching for the meaning of life
You severed ties with glamour of life.

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In to the darkness I stare
A road ahead to take
Oblivious of what lies
In the lap of future.
I stand in a mind with
dark clouds of doubts building
in my spaces of cerebrum
So unclear so unfathomable
So many questions unanswerable.
I sink in to the hopelessness
of darkness and void
I sink in to the doubts
of prickling bushes
I sink in to the death
of silent battle of life.

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The most difficult and unfathomable part of being in Love is we can't know whether the significant other is pretending to be in Love or really in Love. It is of high risk with high stakes.

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