Jo mera tha, wohi mujhse juda ho gaya,
Dil ke andar ka sukoon sab khafa ho gaya.

Uske jaane se andhera sa chhaya hai dil mein,
Har ujala bhi yahan aake fanaa ho gaya.

Meri pehchaan bhi ab dhundh si lagti hai mujhe,
Jaise sab rutba, sab asar, sab mita ho gaya.

Main jo kehta tha ke main ne use bhula diya,
Raat tanhaayi mein sab kuch bayaan ho gaya.

Aaj bhi rooh uski talash karti hai,
Woh mere paas na hoke bhi mera ho gaya.

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I plead: Give me strength,
Yet I fail to rise when the dawn calls.
I plead: Grant me wisdom,
Yet You have declared: “This Qur’an is guidance for the people.”
And I leave it closed upon my shelf.

I whisper: Show me the light,
Yet You have spoken: “Allah is the Light of the heavens and the earth.”
And I close my eyes to its radiance.

I whisper: Reveal to me the truth,
Yet You have said: “And say: My Lord, increase me in knowledge.”
But I cling to illusions that comfort me.

I beg: Give me love,
Yet You have reminded: “Indeed, Allah loves those who rely upon Him.”
And I withhold love from those who need it most.

I ask for all, O Lord Most High,
Yet I cannot master my asking.
My tongue utters, my heart trembles,
My soul wavers between fear and hope—
Between rahmah and ‘adhāb,
Between the Garden and the Fire.

And in the silence of night,
When every plea dissolves into another,
One question alone remains:

What am I truly asking, O Allah?

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The Whisper of My Asking

O Lord of the Worlds,
You have said: “Call upon Me; I will answer you.”
Yet I call, and my deeds betray me.
I seek, yet I know not what I seek.
I plead, yet I falter in the deed.

I say: Grant me patience,
But You have decreed: “Indeed, with hardship comes ease.”
And I shrink before the hardship.

I say: Forgive me, O Most Forgiving,
But You have warned: “Do not despair of the mercy of Allah.”
Yet I despair, and return to what I should forsake.

I say: Ease my heart,
But You have told us: “Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest.”
And still I turn to the noise of the world.

I ask: Guide me to the straight path,
The path of those upon whom You have bestowed favour,
Not of those who earn Your anger, nor of those who go astray.
Yet my feet falter in heedlessness.

I cry: Bestow upon me mercy,
But You have said: “Indeed, My mercy encompasses all things.”
Still, I act as though I am outside its shade.

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Duaon mein geelay hain kapde, aankhon ka noor,
Magar khauf hai aamaal ka, harf harf mein kasoor.
Chup hoon, magar dil mein hai intezaar-e-karam,
Raheem ka ehsaan, aur Rehmat ka bharam.

Masjid ka raasta jaanta hoon,
Magar har dafa khud se hi haar jaata hoon.
Muskurata hoon, sajda bhi karta hoon,
Par har baar usi daira mein bhatak jaata hoon.

Shayad meri masoomi mujhe gumraah karti hai,
Ya meri nadaani, har haqiqat ko dhundh leti hai.
Woh toh mere saamne hai, dekh raha hai,
Mujhe samajhta, pehchanta, har nafas mein basta hai.

Yaqeen hai mujhe uske rahem pe, woh mera khaak bhi uthay ga,
Woh kehta hai “Main Raheem hoon,” to mere liye rahmat ka dariya behta hai.

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"Main Namaz Mein Kho Gaya Tha"

Masjid ke saaye tale jaata hoon har roz,
Ruh ka bojh liye, le jaata hoon khamosh soz.
Ada toh karta hoon namaz-e-wajood,
Magar dil ke sahra mein hai bas ek surood.

Niyat bhi karta hoon, salaam bhi phirta hoon,
Magar har rakat mein kahin kho jaata hoon.
Surah ki tilawat — ek khwab sa lagta hai,
Neend ki chadar mein har lafz bhatakta hai.

Ruku mein jhukta hoon, sajde mein ro leta hoon,
Lekin woh haal-e-dil kisi se keh nahi pata hoon.
Sukoon toh jaise dil se hijrat kar gaya,
Ibadat ka roop sirf aadat ban gaya.

Main phir bhi uthta hoon, har amal dohrata hoon,
Har lafz, har harkat mein pyaar dhoondta hoon.
Lekin woh ishq-e-haqeeqi, woh roshan lagan,
Na qira’at mein milti, na rukoo’n ke chaman.

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Yu To Log Kehte Hain"

Yu to log kehte hain… mai naik khu hu,
Par dil ke makeen mai… ek sada hai sukuu hu.
Wo sada… jo zameer ke dareecho pe dastak deti,
Har khushi ke shehar mai, ek khamoshi leti.
Yu to wo kehte hain… mera kirdar aaeena hai,
Magar nafs ki sarkashi… Firaun ka chehra hai.
Yu to mehfilon mai… mere qaside sunaye jate,
Tareefon ke chiragh… roshni mai jagmgaate.
Magar mai waqif hu… meri hayat ka raaz,
Tahzeeb se door… wahshat ka saaz.
Yu to raton mai sochta… mera anjaam kya hoga,
Mitti ki aaghosh… mujhe kis tarah bhoga?
Kya qabar reshmi kafan ki tarah simat jayegi?
Kya amaal… soorat-e-wahshat ban kar samne ayegi?
Kya us tang o tareek goshe mai… mai cheekh uthaunga?
Nala-o-fughan mai… maa baap ko pukar lunga?
Kya Jannat ki khidki… sirf door se dekhu ga?
Aur bas ek lafz… “Kaash” keh kar ro du ga?
Magar…
Yu to log kehte hain… mera imaan pukhta hai,
Par mai jaanta hu… log to bas kehte hain.

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Tum jo dhoond rahe the dil-o-jaan se, masjid mein
Humein woh mila, bad qismati se, mandir mein
Teri har dua, har aas, har ibadat bekaar gayi
Humari khamoshi, bina kahe hi, asar kar gayi
Tu sajdon mein gira, ro ro ke maanga sukoon
Hum bas ghoomte rahe, aur mil gaya ek naya junoon
Tera khuda chup raha, tera iman bhi thak gaya
Hamara khuda muskara ke, raaste naya dikha gaya
Na roshni ke rang alag the, na saanson ka silsila
Bas insaan ke banaye hue faasle the, jo khud hi gir gaya
Aaj bhi sochta hoon, taqdeer ke khel ajeeb hote hain
Jo cheez humne kabhi sochi bhi nahi, woh naseeb hote hain
Tu masjid mein khoya raha, sukoon ke liye
Hum mandir mein roye, khushi ke liye
Aur bas ek baat samajh aayi, ishq ka rang juda hota hai
Woh na masjid ka hota hai, na mandir ka, bas Khuda hota hai.

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Love is for the stoics who don't fear loss.
Love is for the saints and whose paths they cross.
Love is for the preacher and guide.
Love is for the one on Thee's side.
Love is of guides, of friends of God.
Love needs patience to comprehend.
But who now has an ear to lend.

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In numbness, I find myself now.
No pain, no loss, just hollow eyes somehow.
Questions swirl, answers fade.
A stranger to my own heart's shade.
No love, no hate, just empty space.
No desire for connection, no emotional place.
I don't know why this feels right.
But this is how I am, in this silent night.

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And it is He who takes your souls by night and knows what you have committed by day. Then He revives you therein that a specified term may be fulfilled. Then to Him will be your return; then He will inform you about what you used to do.

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