The maximum number of closest people you can afford or sustain in your life is equal to the number of major disappointments you can handle in a day before you break.

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Waiting around is a continual test under
immense pressure that forces you to become
patient, causing millions of paper cuts all over
your soul for just one single moment to pass.

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Adulting proves
daunting not solely
due to managing
responsibilities,
earning a living,
acquiring a home,
or starting a family.
It's actually about
witnessing the
inevitable aging
of loved ones, the
gradual drift of
friends or potential
lovers, the missed
nostalgia, and
acknowledging
the poignant reality
that one day, they
will all depart, leaving
an irreplaceable void.

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You continue to feel
like a dream, not because
you resemble a cloud,
intangible and distant,
but you feel like a memory,
I've been living in reality.

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I see you.
I see the one who loves me.
I see someone I don't know.
I see someone learning to love me.
I see a stranger-like figure.
I see the one aiming to make me smile.
I see you.

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I long for your touch, yearning to feel near,
Cheeks against your chest, your heartbeat to hear.
Lips on my forehead, a tender caress,
Your hand around my waist, a shield of gentleness.

Your optimistic words, a balm for my soul,
Random reassurances whispered, making me whole.
Watching you asleep, a peaceful sight,
Lips on mine, lost in the night.

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It clenches my stomach, drying my
throat, stealing appetite's embrace.
Hammering within my mind,
a relentless thud upon the right.
Pressing hard upon my heart, left
side pierced by acute pain's grace.
Fear grips me, confidence shattered,
words muted, lost in the fight.

Breathing becomes a labor,
each inhale a struggle, a plea.
Each visit wounds my soul,
weakening my will to survive.
Distorting perception, painting
darkness as light, cruel decree.
Who knew within my feelings,
my greatest nemesis would thrive?

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"I had to choose between trusting
my instincts and trusting him."
"What did you choose?"
"Why not both? We chose us.

It was an opportunity to love,
learn, and grow."

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"It's beautiful!"
"It used to be ugly."

"What's changed?"
"You."

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"How does it feel to be in love?
Life becomes incomprehensible before it."

"What does it feel like when love is reciprocated?
The present becomes incomprehensible."

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