Sitting on bed, leaning my back on wall, I realise that yes I am surrounded by my family both in real living with me and virtually living in different cities and country, I am connected to them in all ways. We do video calls, WhatsApp messages through family, siblings and even cousins groups. Same connection happens with my best friends as well, with long conference calls, texts, video calls and so on. All these looks so chirpy and fruitful and indeed it is.
Even surrounded, I feel lonely, sinking feeling inside me has started to pull me down, trying hard to cope with this seems like a far away thing for me at this point of time. One side my head wants to focus on career, enhancement of my skills and find ways of how I can make myself better professionally but when it comes to heart it just doesn't let me move even an inch from this sitting position, feeling the wind hitting my face from balcony, I feel lonely not alone definitely. I feel empty, seems like something has paralyzed my
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