I am falling deep,
Deep in this void.
I am walking on a path,
I promised to avoid.
Making choices,
That won't end well.
The more I tried to stop myself
The more I fell
Under your spell.
And I know
My heart might break again,
Yet I am willing
To bear that pain.
Willing to risk it all,
All over again.
This road may end in tears,
But I am no longer
A slave to my fears.
And I really don't know,
If we are gonna make it through .
But all I know is,
I just can't stop myself from loving you.

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I don't think we are gonna last
I wish we did,
I wanted you to care for me
It's all that I need.
I thought you'd be different
That you won't leave me midway,
It took a while, but I understood,
You don't love me, no matter what you say.
And each time I let it sink in
That I am never gonna see you again,
I feel like I am drowning,
In a sea of pain.
Nothing feels good anymore
And every second my heart breaks,
No one can possibly understand
How much it aches.
I just wish you too loved me,
And things didn't turn out this way,
I am so in love with you,
Please, please just don't go away .

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Why would I desire to live
When the world is full of misery.
With tears and pain all around ,
And trust is replaced by treachery.
It's a world where everyone is pretending,
And no one is genuinely smiling.
Everyone is trying to just survive,
And every soul is suffering.
This world is too threatening,
I no longer desire to live here.
I am tired of all the agony,
I just wish I could disappear,
Forever.

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Oh! Old love of mine,
It's nice to see you,
I hope you are doing fine.
Rumours I have heard,
You have found someone new.
I bit jealous I was,
But I am truly happy for you.

Each time you talk, how you feel
Holding her in your embrace,
Your eyes glow up,
With a smile on your face.

And, as for me,I am doing fine
Some issues I have figured,
Some, I am trying.
Making choices, that are tough,
Still focusing on self love.

Talking to you,felt nice
Yet, its time to say good bye,
But let me tell you this,
Before we part,
I will always carry you, in my heart.

-Tania Roy Chaudhury

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They say they know all about her,
But for how long have they known her?
They claim to know, what she likes
They know, when triggered,
She yells and fights.
But have they seen her cry?
Were they there,
When all she wanted, was to die.
They have seen her, being rude and strong
She once used to take refuge in pain
And it hasn't been that long.
They weren't there,
When self loathe consumed her,
When her heart was full of guilt and fear.
They say , she is selfish and heartless.
She did once gave it all,
And ended up alone ,in a total mess.
They say they know her,
Yet have no idea, how old pain still haunts her .
They believe she is happy when she smiles,
Everything she shows is a facade,
To hide her soul, her lips pour out lies.

-Tania Roy Chaudhury

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Oh! Dear eyes of mine
It's time for you to close now.
You have seen enough,
You can finally rest now.
Enough have you cried,
In that lonely dark night.
I know how hard, you tried,
But it's time to give up the fight.
It's time let go,
Peace awaits for you now.
Oh! Dear eyes of mine,
It's time for you to rest now.

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I once was a dreamer,
A believer.
Lived in a land full of fantasies,
Read books of love and fairies.
And one day, I saw a prince.
He wore his shinning armour,
And carried a sword made of steel.
Rode his snow white horse.
His eyes were glittering blue,
Seemed too good to be true.
I lost my heart to him.
Thought he'd treat it right.
I used to be such a happy soul,
Until he drew away all the light.
He filled my heart with such darkness
Like a black bottomless pit,
That will engulf anyone
Who even dares to love it.


-Tania Roy Chaudhury

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Have you seen your whole world falling infront of your eyes,
When your dream shatters ,and nothing feels nice.
When peace is ripped off your soul,
And there is chaos all around,
And you just can't turn off that deafening sound.
When your future is lost in the dark.
A hollow in your heart,
And it feels like it's your end,
Your dead end...

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I loved him in ways, he couldn't love himself.
Brought him light , while he was caught amidst shadows.
Nurtured his worn out dreams.
Healed his wrecked heart.
Bit by bit, piece by piece, filled his empty soul with peace.
Built a mansion of happiness for him.

And then ,
He kicked me out of that mansion.

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I wish you didn't love me, the way you do,
My heart is numb, and I can't love you.
I have plans, I have dreams ,
I want a life and you don't fit in.
Your love is pure and your heart is sweet,
But you are not the one I see my future with.
So I wish you didn't love me , the way you do,
Because I am never gonna love you.

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