When I look back,
I see nothing but darkness, Full of lies.
I barely find myself,
In the insanity where,
I needed to stay sane,
In people's eyes.
I see myself craving nothing,
But just a real smile.
I did nothing to be drawn,
Into the fog of self-destruction.
I wanted to do something,
But couldn't have the courage to,
Pull back the tears of my ocean eyes.
I smile now,
As my emotions kept me together.
They held be the best,
When my eyes lost their vision,
And when I saw the changing weather.
I know, I feel too much,
But it's not something,
Which kept my soul, In an unholy place,
Where without any sound, I cried.
It's something which made me realize,
My real value in the heart,
of my loved ones,
Especially mine.
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