We get over love,
We do not get over hurt.

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शाम को आपस में बैठे मैं और मां कुछ बातें कर रहे थे हम। हमारी आदत है, अक्सर हम बहुत समय तक ऐसे ही बात करते हैं। तब चर्चा हुई की इंसान परिस्थितियों और वस्तुओं का दास है। पैसा ज़्यादा ज़रूरी होता है या किसी अपने का साथ, अपनेपन का लगाव? तब बस झट से मैंने एक जवाब दिया, "जेब देख के इंसान अपनी जरूरतें सीमित कर लेता है पर दिल, भावना, लगाव, प्यार... इन सब में कोई भेदभाव नहीं होता, ये तो बस असीमित है।"
शायद इसलिए, पैसा सब कुछ खरीद के भी उन्हें महसूस करने की इच्छा नहीं दे सकता है। हम सब बस किसी अपने का सहारा ढूंढते हैं !
मैं स्वतः से दंग थी और मां मेरे जवाब से खुश! शायद मैं वाकई में बड़ी हो गई हूं।

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You know there are people for whom you push your limits and you would do every damn thing possible for them. You love to see them happy, hear them laugh and make them smile. You would move mountains for them and cross bridges over the sea just to keep them content and happy. And it's not because how they are but because you make them so special in your own perspective.
But there comes a time that your efforts are not appreciated, not that you did it for any appreciation but when you get the same vibe over and over again; of someone trying to push you away, of someone not even trying to cross puddles for you and everytime you move one step ahead, they move two steps behind.
But how long do you want to be treated like that despite the fact that how you feel about it ? There comes an end where you want to be accepted and not pushed away. And then, there comes a day, you actually give up; not because you wanted to but because they forced you too. And then, what works is not how you felt but Reverse psychology! The feeling of leaving rather than watching yourself getting broken pieces by pieces. Because, you choose PEACE over PIECES.

Is it okay to give up ?
Is it me or is it you too ?

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so many secrets of me
and people who adore me,
who stayed with me when
I'm a chaotic mess.
And people who left me
even when I was an absolute
beautiful darling to them.

My mobile phone
carries secrets heavier
than any person,
Just a little less heavier
than my heart.

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Vivacious

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Just like the sun sets and you never see the same sunset again, she decided to leave and left. You may find parts of her in different people and things around you but you may never find someone like her in the way you knew her.
She left behind the city, the place, the people only to brighten up and go to the place where she actually belongs, where she is actually celebrated.

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how consistent you are every single day..
Don't you ever feel like taking a break ?
Don't you get tired of waking up early
and following the same schedule daily?
Sometimes, I feel how the world would
seem if you don't wake up and cheer up the sky.
You embellish the sky with your wings
and it looks like a beautiful sight to behold.
The orange hue of the sun looks more enhanced
when the silhouette of your wings
appears right in front of the sun.
You make me realise that the world
is more about giving irrespective
of what you may receive.
You make me realise how beautiful
it is to give and share and make this
world a happy place to live.

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Something was more scorching
than Mumbai's heat today
They were the scars a person feels when
Someone loses a friend,
Someone loses their love,
Someone loses a confidant
Someone loses their source of joy
And someone loses their ability
to trust again and fly high.
How does someone digest the fact that people
who meant everything change their skin as if
summer melted what was masked
revealing what actually laid concealed.

But how about someone
who lost all of these in one person
A person they fondly called HOME!
today left them alone.
Homeless she wanders,
her bones burn in the pyre,
The pyre hotter than the summertime heat
Sadness evaporating in the fumes;
If only she wouldn't be burnt !!

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Is it even worth
the fight to fight
for the people
so that they can
fight for you ?

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Too many traumas,
all at once
Dear life,
why you ain't fun ?

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