She feels tired.
And this tiredness,is not what she feels in her body
She feels tired in her soul.

It’s like she has been running, running away from something that scares her,
Perhaps from the acceptance that her life is turning out the way she had never thought of or wanted it to be..

She is tired of the blames and accusations which she puts on herself, also the blames others put on her even on the slightest of chances found.
She is tired by now of dreaming of a life she will never have again.

Even though there are no voices in her head right now, she feels no peace and doesn’t find it at all in any hook or corner.
Perhaps it’s the calm before the storm that is going to shatter her and leave her in minute bits and pieces again.

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At the crossroads of life…
I stand here waiting for a guiding light.
Here I am to choose, the path I’m supposed to take ,
The things I’m supposed to do and will do.
All of it seems vague,
Yet I’m standing here still, coz this road right here seems a winding mess.
The confusion here seems to multiply 10X,
I’m falling in short of words to express.
I agree on this “what’s life without a little rain?”
But haven’t I embraced it all enough, without complaining about the pain.
My heart is going numb,day by day, from all that it feels constantly,
The more I’m searching for myself, the more I’m losing myself entirely.
I’m broken, yet I have a soul..
And to get rid of this, it frightens me to think that a sharpened blade is the way..
It feels fuzzy and nice, while tears escape,
Well, some relief it feels like and I go do it everyday.
Ever knew this phase of life, wouldn’t have come all this way,
Still trying to mend this, still hoping to see the ray..
I’m still standing here at the crossroads of life, still figuring out my way.

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I am not any longer afraid of the Darkness…

I am rather a lot scared about the the depth of the dark that Darkness hides in itself…

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I met you,
In a time and place that
I did not expect us to happen at all.

I was day
You were night.
I was sunset
You were sunrise.

I was there weeping and waiting ,
You were there smiling and waving.

I was there with a forced smile,
You were there talking with your ever so amazing smize.

I was there lost,
You were there with the ‘THIS WAY’ sign.

I was there uncertain of life,
You were there standing so full of life.

And just like things opposite...
-it attracts
-it pulls
-it collides

And here we are-
YOU. I. & US.
Making memories together,
Standing besides each other,
Having each other’s back forever.
In laughter,in pain..in happiness,in sadness..in good,in bad..hand in hand
I promise to hold tight on to You Forever.

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I now know where my forever favourite home is.. “ In your arms in between the rhythms of your heartbeats...”

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We live in an era, where a nice deed leads to needless assumptions...And why not ? We have gotten used to people being biased and mean, ain’t it ?

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To the MAN who changed my world..

Thank You for recognising me...
Thank You for reading me out even without me saying a word...
Thank You for fixing my heart...
Thank You for all that you do...

You make me the happiest.
I’m a different person when I’m with you..
The best part about you is that you complete me..
With you my world is easy..
You are my all the bright places..
You are that part of me that I will always need...

I HEART YOU..

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I miss Me...
The old Me...

The ever-smiling Me..
The Happy Me..
The Crazy Me..
The Bright Me..
The Laughing Me..

The ever-gone Me..

Struggled a little..went back in time to find The Me..but only to realise that I have lost that ME forever..and that pain I felt made me realise that I have been broken by someone into a million pieces for quite sometime with no passage for the light to get into that darkness and find the ME...

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I want being soft..
I wanna say things that matter, I know I am weird at times and may be stupid too also a kiddo(only with my closest ones) at times but I know I don’t think of or intend any bad for anyone..
I want to know how it feels to like wake up and be so in love; with myself..
I wanna stay warm, inviting and kind always...
I want to see my friends and I grow like wildflowers in a field around me, I wanna help them grow in life and not let them cry over monsters/witches in the night.I wanna be a Sun; nourishing and plentiful always. I wanna hold them close to my heart when they are sad and celebrate with them when they are happy.
I just wanna contribute in some way to the things that are important..
I wanna be a person that someone thinks of when they are reminded of something that made their day... :)

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Days are passing by...
And now my heart badly cries...
I’d thought it would get better...
But now nothing really matters...
I really want to fly somewhere away...
And it would not just be another day...
In this world full of people, so many I’m surrounded by...
But not a single, that would stay...
Even the sky above seems to be grey...
It’s Hurt only , when in memories I always sway...
So let me just save myself from the same and walk away...

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