एक तुम हो, एक वो कुछ ख़त तुम्हारे
एक मेरे ज़हन में तुम्हारी परछाई है,
ये सिगरेट से भी आज मुझको चैन नहीं पड़ता
लगता है आज फिर से तुम्हारी याद आई है....

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मैं अक्सर तेरी कहानियाँ, तेरे किस्सों में आऊँगा,
तुझे हर पल, तुझे हर हिस्से में चाहूँगा
ज़माना मुझे तेरी चाहत में धुत देखेगा,
मैं भटकता खाली रास्तों में कहीं खो जाऊँगा
होती होगी जरूरत औरों को सज़दे की,
मेरा क्या, मैं तो इन ख्वाबों में तेरा हो जाऊँगा
चैन पड़े मेरे दिल को, ऐसी तो कोई दवा मिले,
किसी रोज़ तो मैं भी सुकून से घर जाऊँगा
यूँ तो कोई मसला नहीं, बस इतनी सी बात है,
की या तो तुम्हारे साथ जी लूँगा या फिर तुम्हारी याद में मर जाऊँगा
किसी रोज़ तो मैं भी सुकून से घर जाऊँगा
तुझे हर पल, तुझे हर हिस्से में चाहूँगा, तेरी कहानियाँ, तेरे किस्सों में आऊँगा....

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तुम नहीं हो तो फिर हैं ये तराने कैसे
आबाद हैं बरसों से,ग़म ये पुराने कैसे,
एक तेरी आवाज़ सुने ही मुझको ज़माना हो गया
तेरे वापस आने की मानें तो मानें कैसे....

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Dear anonymous, there are days when I can't bear my emotions and today it is surely one of those days.
Just got the news of my friend getting back with the girl he loved after being separated for nearly one and a half years.
And it all brought back memories of you,memories of us.
How we used to fight over silly things and everytime you used to make that puppy face to win fights,but you know what,that is what I loved the most.
You were my kiddo,my strength,who used to irritate me a lot but it was all soothing.
Today when I recall those moments,my senses go numb,my mind can't process the fact that we aren't together.
I know I had made lot of mistakes but the thing that I bet upon is that no one could love you the same way as I do.
But frankly speaking,I know that if I would sacrifice my every single thing today,even then I can't get you back,i can't see your puppy face again,can't feel the warmth of your touch,can't tell you that how much I love you and it just pierces my heart,i am loosing all my hopes.
Every single day i think of you and pray to god to show some magic,so that I could get you back soon,cheers🥂🥂🥂

-suyash

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Dear anonymous,today,on May 6 at 6:30 morning,i dreamt of you,you and I were together,sharing smiles,holding hands,doing mischievous things, you were there just in front of me and my eyes were scintillating just with your one view.
The warmth of your touch and the innocence in your eyes just forced me to forget all the worldly things.
But the harsh part is,when I opened my eyes,the reality hitted me much harder than it ever did.
With those wet eyes,i just thought this dream could have been little long,I didn't wanted to loose that feeling but everything shattered as soon as I opened my eyes and the first thing that I asked from god today was to just let this dream be true.
Because I know this,that if you would be with me,i could handle millions of blows,what I couldn't handle is that separation from you,that abandonment,that distance.
And i just want to tell you that no matter what this world thinks of me,a moron,a stupid or anything,i know that no one could feel the same way,what I feel for you and i would be there waiting for you to come back,to hold my hands again,to let this dream turn true,untill then,cheers 🥂🥂🥂

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Dear anonymous,cheers to the worst evening of this year.
How to define this moment, piercing, tarnishing,heart breaking, desolate or what not.
Everything so dismantled,so lonely at this point of time and the worst part is that the reason to this disaster is still unknown,life seems at still with no directions to go, everything is so so so irritating and intolerant,it seems like that with the every passing moment, something inside is squeezing to its fullest of extent and the end is near.
For the sake of this night,when no one is near, lots of changes might be on its way.
This night is embarking the worst scars of life on mind and it is turning out to be a nightmare indeed.
What has been left with is an empty glass and a lot full of memories,cheers🥂🥂🥂


-suyash

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Dear anonymous,i know you are stucked,stucked between your soul fighting to try for one more time and your mind hustling to not loose your self esteem,i know you have given literally everything in such a short span of time,you have brought scintillating moon and gazing stars and had showered it on the person you loved.
Today this tussle between your heart and your mind is the real war,this war would define you as a person.
In this world full of betraying,selfish people,person like you who is pouring all efforts, doing everything possible is a rare find.
You are much valuable than you think of yourself,it's just that the blocks you want to fit in are not of the desired size and you keep on hurting yourself by trying harder and harder to fit in though.
So would just say,take a deep breath,try to the extent you want to but always remember one thing, until and unless your heart pinches you that the thing is valuable enough,it isn't worth fighting for,your efforts to let a dead flower bloom would only give you harsh desolation and nothing,so just take sigh a bit and get over the every hurdle,behind that is a new beautiful world waiting for you to conquer,untill then, cheers 🥂🥂🥂

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I know you are someone else's forever, still I would be there,waiting for you to come if possible,all life long.....

-suyash

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Dear best person,a very happy birthday to you,let me tell you man,you seriously were the best person of my life,no ifs and no but's,the bond I have shared with you,I haven't shared with anyone till now,you were awesome,my soul protector,who supported me in all my odds,when no one was with me,you were there all alone holding my back,you made me believe that yes relations are more than having same parental blood, I don't have siblings but you had surely gave me a bit of experience how it would be like being with an elder sister.
Just want to say that no matter if we are neither together nor in contact,but let me tell you that I still pray for your future,for your dreams to get fulfilled.
Learning a classical dance, speaking in front of lot of people,attending my marriage with your fiance, going Disneyland were some fascinating dreams we saw together and if someday odds would be in our favour,we will surely fulfill them.
Untill then enjoy your life,may God give you everything,even of my luck as well,again, happiest birthday appi, 🥂🥂🥂

-suyash

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Dear anonymous,I miss you,I really really miss you,there are days when I feel completely alone, though I am strong most of the times,I fall weak in few moments,those moments with you were worth craving for.
Not getting the words to express my dumb emotions but I am broken,I am helpless without you,you were the one who had made me feel completed,who had let me enabled to be in love,who made me believe that putting everything you have in love is of all worth.
I haven't changed since then,since you left, everything is shear same,me,my habits,my love,those memories, every single thing is same,the only thing which is missing is you,you are my only wish,my last one and it won't change till the end of my life, would love you with all my heart out.
Maybe someday odds would be in my favour and you would be mine somehow, this wait would last untill then,cheers 🥂

-suyash

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