My aim is a peace,
Being alone is all come with the price
Everytime I become selfish
I don't realise
How hurt you are
I never known
How it felt
To be ghosted
Because I wanted to be, forever.
I like not being acknowledged
Neither to sense my presence
It's peaceful to be hated
Finding yourself in places
Where no one finds you, need you
Or want you.

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In the end,
I drop down your charismatic charm..
I had to accept that
There's so much to console
And very little is confronted
I was forced to be known
And naive about it
When I'm so much aware..
I will assure the existence is eternal
But when I lose you
I lose my nerve too.

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She is so good to be true
Is she pretending,
Wasn't she thinks straight
Like how she shows up
Everytime with decent image
But I know her,
I'm withered upon her broken heart
Why did she do that
Or what else you make her to be so
She was beautiful as per I have known
But this time when she walks away
She won't be coming back.

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The more I escape from the pain
The more I realised I'm made of it
And everytime I tried to get rid of it
I lose a inch of mine too...!

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Remember, there is no closure
When it comes to us..
No matter how many times
We meet as the last times
It was never the last time..

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I'm guilty enough to say that
I'm failed as a human
A good daughter,
A better person
A colleague
As a mentor or junior
As a companion
As a friend
I'm failed in all
I'm all at risk
I lose all.. I have only me
So, I stand whether you liked it or not
I already knew
I'm all on my own.

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You are always a stranger
Every day I figured something new,
I know nothing about
But I fall for each version
I could feel you
Vibes can't lie
They told me
You are different
I believe in it..
But was it you?
I grieve in so many ways
you are still unknown
And I meet every day a new stranger!

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I'm not willing to take that risk
To be naive once again
To be fooled once again
To be ghosted forever
Where will I find you..?
That known you
Or someone stranger
I'm not ready for chaos
It is so soon
It won't stop either
We will be there, some other time
In the same crumbling world
Just about to fall in.

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They said, indoor plants are easy to manage
But I'm willing to take that risk
To let it breathe anyway
I'm ready to see cut it off
Perhaps pains even more
But I want it should grow anyway
Each day it is thriving
Each day a bit challenged
But what makes sense killing it today
Without letting it survive
On it's own.
Who am I to make that choice..?
I will set you free anyways..!

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For all those times
When I was growing up
I see my mom
And questions her every actions
Why did she refused every party,
Get together, and all the fun
Which I think..it is..
And how easily she turns people down
I blame her for being heartless
& I'm doing the same as I'm growing older
I exactly turns out like her
& I understand she wasn't heartless
She was heartbroken
Just so, it will break my heart
If my child turns out like me
It's so unfair..!

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