My skin started to glow,
I became Chubby.

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I'm Tired

Tired of not being good enough for you,
Tired of seeing you with someone else,
Tired of pretending that everything is fine,
Tired of adjusting with the things which I don't want to,
Tired of doing everything yet remained as an option to you,
Tired of asking sorry when it's not even my fault,
Tired of craving for love, when i needed to be myself.

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Move On? When? ;(

You cry at the thought of loosing them even though you never really had them..
You tell them you like them and they took you for granted, treated you like nothing..
But still you just can't get over them..
You say, you're over it..
You say, you'll move on..
But all it'd takes is a quick glance at them to send you back tumbling..
You loved their personality, their smile, their whole being so much that you just don't know what that feeling is anymore..

Then you will feel this emptiness in your life.. A hole that nothing seems to fill..

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Mom: Are you fine?
Me: yes, i'm fine.
Wait how do you define what's fine?
I smile,i laugh, i eat properly, i do my job pretty well, i do all my chores pretty well,
So exactly what is defined as what's fine?

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The pain

You unleashed all the pain,
All the sufferings i have been through.
Made me a person who found her inner peace,
Now, here I'm again the same old person,
In all the dark world without anyone besides.
I won't be normal again,
Thank you for that.

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Time goes by
And things will change,
Once you were mine
And now you aren't there.
You will always be my hardest goodbye,
Never thought u would leave me like this.
This vamoose has made me numb,
Thank you for making me feel dumb.

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I missed you,

So much that i couldn't breathe,
So much that I couldn't sleep,
So much so that my heart is choking,

I couldn't forget the fact that you aren't mine.
You made me happy in few days that i was not in many years.
How can i forget those days,
How can i live in your memories now?

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I'm at that point in life, where I don't know how to fix myself anymore.
But when u ask me how i feel,
I always say i'm fine.

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I wanted to scream,
I wanted to throw it out,
I wanted that to vanish from my memory,
But sadly, it's the scar of my life,
Never fades,
So i whisper all the time I'M Fine

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My whole world was revolving around you,
My safe home was you,
My happy place was you,
My reality was you.

Now here i m,
Lost everything which i was thinking as mine.

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