I'LL COME BACK, MAYBE, MAYBE NOT

They say, you're on your hermit days
I say, I'm outgrowing my shell these days
For the seamless sky is calling out my name
I feel alive again
I showed them the mirror, they refrained
Now they know the truth, it ain't a game
Once the clouds tear apart through the mountains
I'll dive in, I won't ever be the same
The December is burning
The memories running
I will be loved in my own way
But I gotta go now, I can't stay
No, don't call out for me
No, it won't be easy
But the Universe leading the way, my confidant
I'll come back when they remember me

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Life has taught us to forget, forgive and move on. All our lives we've been reminded of this simple process, time and again.

Fine. Justified.

But kahin toh hoga ek thaharav, kahin toh thamegi yeh Zindagi, kahin toh ruk ke saans lenge hum, kahin toh milegi iss dil ko sukoon, kisi mein toh dhund hi lenge hum apna ghar.

Life won't stop even after reaching that stoppage. It won't come to an halt. It will go on, but this time we won't have to repeat the same approach of forgetting and moving on. This time we'll continue, with the cognizance of being at home and loved.

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Sometimes, the Almighty blocks the side passages before you could even enter one, because he knows that you deserve to be on the main lane, because he has the right person, the right opportunity, waiting for you at the end of the lane.

You deserve to be loved the way you do. You deserve the happiness you spread in others' lives. And who acknowledges this better than the Almighty?

Be patient. Take the leap of faith. Follow his path. You'll reach where you're destined to be. You'll feel home.

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The miseries remain intact. The scenario remains unchanged. The problems abide to their places.

But this time, there's a difference. This time the mind is unwithered and silent. The heart becomes devoid of warmth and ardour, stone-cold.

And this time, she somehow foresaw it coming her way. Only how much can the soul take!

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You see the flame healing hearts, lightening up the lives around it?

I see it too.

I also see the candle beneath it, standing yet in darkness, melting away, ending, all this while.

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It took me all these years to realise, that you can find your ultimate state of peace once you stop taking burdens of others' actions. They may or may not lie, cheat, hurt you. They may or may not value your intentions. They may or may not keep their words. They may or may not understand the real you. They may or may not know your worth and disregard you. As long as you understand that your intentions are selfless, pure and away from any harsh feelings or grudges, it should not affect your actions towards them. Know that not everyone is meant to understand you and it's okay. You have no control over anyone's actions but yours, only yours. That is when you fall into the real state of bliss.

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Isn't it beautiful, to give all your soul, put all your heart into the people and yet eventually watch them abandon you, without giving a second thought?

Isn't it brave, to feel the ache of that heartbreak, piercing right through you?

Isn't it inspiring, to be down on your knees, gathering the shattered pieces, desperately trying to put yourself back together even when the edges make you bleed?

Isn't it fresh, to start it all over, again and again?


Well, it isn't...

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Sometimes persistence is all you need to survive through the most blinding storms, you just need to hold on and not give up. That consistency would help you forge through these testing times, breaking through every hurdle that comes in the way.

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Emotions are vastly misunderstood as portraying them not being healthy. Even God has emotions. You are human after all for that sake, emotions are what make you what you are morally. God says about involvement, involvement with the species, but it is again misunderstood as God asking to be exclusive from emotions. Emotions are what will make you engage with the lives on earth, it's impossible without them to be empathetic towards your fellow beings and giving a helping hand to anyone. So feel them, let them flow, that's how you move on and not get stuck with them. Avoid attachments, not emotions.

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We often let others have power over our moods. What are these moods? These are simply the reflections of others' actions and words, having impact on ours. But why should we allow that to happen?

We should be capable of being in control of whatever happens within us. That's how our mechanism is meant to function.
If someone else's action is able to determine and decide our mood, isn't it the ultimate slavery?

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