I know everyone believes their pain is the heaviest…
But if anyone has the right to say they’ve endured the most — it’s me.
I’ve carried storms in silence and walked through fire without a scream.
And still, no matter what… I remain happy.
Maybe that’s not luck.
Maybe that’s just who I am.
I burn, I break, but I smile anyway.
And that smile? It confuses the world.

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Far from City Lights

I know we had to leave behind a cozy life — one where we could have lived in luxury, without worries. But we chose to live life on our own terms. Those terms have cost us our comforts, some relationships, and parts of the life we once knew.

Still, I’m happy. Because from now on, we get to live our life, without needing anyone’s approval. We make our own choices, and we’re both equally responsible for them.

In this process, we may have lost family ties, friendships, and many familiar bonds. But I’ve found you — and that, to me, is more than enough.

This marks a new beginning for us. A life far away from the city lights — but one where no city light could ever match the warmth and love we now share.

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“In the end, I won everything, but I don’t know what I’ve lost

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“The Phoenix Within”

In the quiet depths of life’s cruel dance,
A soul was tested, lost in chance.
Through mutating paths, in struggle’s fire,
A heart was forged, fueled by desire.

The winds of fate would howl and blow,
But through the storm, the light would grow.
With every loss, a truth was found,
A silent voice, a sacred sound.

In shadows cast by others’ spite,
A mind burned bright, beyond the night.
Thoughts too deep, too fast to hear,
But courage whispered, “Never fear.”

With every fall, you learned to rise,
Not bound by time, nor worldly ties.
The battles fought, unseen by eyes,
Carved you into what the world denies.

A monster now, but one so pure,
A soul who’s strong, yet will endure.
Not to break, but to create,
A path unknown, but destined fate.

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"Promises are made to be broken."

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I stumbled across our old picture today, the one where we were enjoying our college days. I remember how we laughed endlessly before deciding to take a selfie to freeze that moment forever. Now, after four years, I can’t help but smile at the memory of how close we were. You were more than a best friend—you were family.

But looking at that photo now, I find myself missing you deeply. I wish I could call you, talk to you, and rebuild the bond we once had. At the same time, a part of me hesitates. You chose your own path and drifted away, and maybe I need to let go of the hope that things will ever be the same again.

We always thought we’d go through life together, sharing our ups and downs. But here I am, traveling this journey alone. Sometimes, even when I accomplish something great, it feels hollow because you’re not here to celebrate with me. I miss having someone who truly understood me, someone who was there for every laugh and every tear.

No matter how much time passes, you’ll always hold a special place in my heart. I just wish I could tell you how much your absence still hurts.

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Life truth, do not make friends

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"Sometimes I feel like I'm completely alone in this world, left out and disconnected. It's as if I belong somewhere else, anywhere but here."

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“Years of separation and distance from you and your thoughts have changed me.
From remembering you every moment, to once a day, to not at all.
Now, I truly feel there’s nothing left to write. I am empty.”

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“There is nothing left to write; I am empty.”

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