More than 1 year, 1 girl ,1 changer
1 saviour,
These people were there ,
Everytime when it happened, always he dare
Changer played his game , girl was prostrated
What girl spoke that is unknown but girl sobbed all the time and so opinionated
Hard to convince so he gave so many marks
Pain that he injected are now giving incessantly jerks
Hey u yes i m telling you your harshness had made me , i thought of myself but didn't disconnected you.
Your memories are in my Hippocampus.
Ha Abhi bhi dard hai !!— % &

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Hey myself
Life will show you worst in a best possible way
You will have to pass it or have to perish
And listen u can't run away
As history is a witness
Whatever the situation is ,if you will try escape , life will show you the same thing again and again— % &

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I try to spend time to look at myself , and my faults
And i put my heart always in a correction slot
Everytime my compulsion carries me to the confusing path
For the well off of the hearts i stood numb in the same swath
I feel my life as hard and hurdle
I want to stop for sometime to help and cuddle.

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i need upliftment.....
i need support....
yeah today i m really scared , doubtful , i dont what will happen...
i want something like k...yess i m good in studies..most of the children are saying that paper was easy..
if it was easy then how i did these mistakes...
how my marks got deducted..
it means i not even an average child...
i m feeling like i m nothing in this world ...
.why all this is happening wid me.. i worked hard..i know i did everything very well..
then why i m so scared

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A NIGHT BEFORE EXAM

hey...
today i came to you to get relieve from the distress or stress.
tomorrow is my exam , my first board exam..and this night is somewhere very important for me to have positive vibes and mindset.
but the i kind of fear in my mind, as there no way of saying i do good next tym, all expectations of parents are striking my mind and it seems like if i will something tomorrow that will not be corrigible whether it will be right or wrong.


yeah i know everything will be fine because everything is in control of my god.
and the there is no need to take stress .

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CHANGEs?

i m surprised by the pace i m losing my greenness
i m leaving behind all naive habits
i see myself as someone who is entirely responsible for her life's matter
it's like i m opening the book which was left behind,
missing those old pages ,i found myself among those whom i was trying to understand years ago,
matters of those days were,
losing pencil, homework, tearing and skipping pages;
but now days are different situations are different , and expectations are different
.It's a
change from green to brown?
??

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i don't know the compulsions of my life, but there are many,
which seems so complicated .
i feel like drowning in the life and putting off all compulsions, desires that are i m carrying in my heart.
i don't know what i m writing what
what i m feeling , i have lost my sense , and every now and then finding myself.

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माना के बिजली की झालर चमकती है,
माना के आज के दिन खुशहाली है।
मगर सायद तुम भूल गए हो ,
के उस कुम्हार के घर मे दिवाली है।

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बस यूही छत के नीचे रहकर ,
आशा के दीप जलाए है।
सडकों पर बच्चे बैठे है,
हाथो मे खाली प्याली है
जो कहकर आए हो सबसे,
क्या सच मे आज हैप्पी दिवाली है

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Somewhere behind the curtains, while coming down through stairs
air from my home touches my heart and takes back to the memories.
whether its ad on youtube of diwali celebration or family togetherness, brings very sick feeling down in my stomach , but the track i chose , and goals i fixed and the path i m going through are very expert in teaching me "how to overcome homesickness".
the willingness and those brilliancy of faces and smiles are miles away , i can't show my feeling to change my path and to start heading towards my home, towards my authenticity , where i left my organic heart and natural smile.
i see the big city shining like stars have made their home down on earth, big buildings , colourful lights , snowy , blond and vivid fringy decoration that my eyes gaze upon.
i smile to them in a sort of crooked way and stood still like stable water for very long ,thinking that may be my future , my efforts will bright those faces that are alone there in a home.
tears have blurred my eyes something very deeply happened in my body but i wink them again and again and averted then from coming down on my cheeks.

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