Today I can't speak kindly, my love,
Today I'm gonna disappear,
It's the day of death.
You can't surprise someone who celebrates death,
Smile as you do your hurting,
I can't breathe at night when the memories hit,
I just wanna cry, cry all night till it stops making me weak,
Cold brave eyes, but I just wanna break myself,
Just to feel real, just to feel strong,
I wanna see the tears,
But they don't come out,
I feel stones under the cold water,
They look at me like I'm crazy,
Blood spilled across my face,
Red on my teeth, bloody hands,
Bleeding soul.
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