ये जो अनकही बातें है
इनका होना ही तो एक राज़ है
बया करना भी मुश्किल है
खामोशियों से भी तुम्हे एतराज है
तुम्हे खोने से दिल डरता है
क्यों तू इतना खास है
तेरे न होने पर भी
क्यों हर पल तेरा अहसास है
न वक्त है और ना ही तेरी रजा
हारा तो में कबका था पर इस हार में एक अलग ही बात है
क्यों दिल तुझे उनसे इतनी मोहोबत है
पर इजहार करने से भी तुझे इनकार है
क्यों ये बाते बेतुकी सी लगती है
ना तुम मेरे हो ना मेरी किस्मत में तुम्हारा साथ है
फिर भी मेरे रूह में सिर्फ तुम्हारा ही जिक्र है
तुम्हारी तारीफे और मेरे अनकहे ख्वाब है

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Who was I ? And now who I'm ??
Am i changed or is it's your perspective ,which is wrong?

If i could return, I will be for sure
But you already closed all the doors to your soul

You blamed me for everything
left me with no reason
Maybe Somewhere I'm involved,
But rest are only allegation
Of those crimes i have never done
Just forced by circumstances...

I know it's my fault & I'm full of flaws
Lost in my own hallucinations

Who was i ?
I don't remember anything
Don't even want to memorize actually

But now who I'm ??
daker & invisible
Nonexisted like essence
The one without your presence,
The one without your attention............

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I hold onto all that is left of you

Knowing all that is left is pain

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Why?
It feels so good but hurts so bad.
And maybe I'm the sucker for this pain,
I keep coming back for more,
Again & Again
& I'm the cause for my own miseries all the time
Cause maybe I'm insane
Without any reason


Why I Can't Deny it's existence
I keep coming back for more...
Why? It's not annoying but adorable

Why is this pain??
So beautiful.......

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Hold me close to your instincts
You will feel me bleed
I will be your Arsenal
Just be my Destiny
& we will stictch our dreams into reality...

Hold me till the end of time
One Day,
We will flow with the same breeze
I will be your ocean
Just be my sunshine
& we will intertwined in the horizon
For eternity...

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Jikr aaj bhi jab kabhi tera hota hai,
Na janei kyo? Yai ankhei namm ho jati hai.
Aur Bewajah hi log kehtai hai
Ki Wakt kai sath jakhm bhar jaya kartei hai....

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Even in this meaningless conversation,
I found something more than I ever  imagined
Although it's an empty assumption,
An illusion that is trying to hide itself from the reality.
But it's more than satisfaction,
Cause I know I'm quiet desperate to figure out the conclusion
It's fascinating yet weird and disgusting;
I call it "EXPECTATIONS"….
It's the hardest thing I ever dealt with I guess,
It's an undetachable part of my life.
Something I'm very eager to erase
But can't cause it wouldn't end my addiction.
Maybe it's more than I deserve.
But I'm not the one who should judge!
It's tangled with millions of emotions,
Meaningless yet they exist
& Describe a story,
A story wrapped with thousands of secrets,
But with  something I always desire....
I found you in that meaningless conversation...

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Let me be in darkness
Let me intertwined into imperfections of night.
Although it's beautiful,
Addictive and admiring
But I don't wanna stuck in this moment forever...
Somehow i will manage to escape one day
I will find a place to hide in my vain
With all of my failures and my messed up life
I will find a way to survive....

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I'm not sick anymore
Just hypnotized by your efforts...
& I'm Witnessing every conspiracies,
You weaved around my universe....
I know what you're hiding behind that unrealistic smile...
I know all those dark intentions, craving inside your soul for a long time...
You're amplified with rage and redemption,
Desperate to burn my determination
But I can't help myself,
Cause you're more than my addiction.

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लोगो की इस लंबी list मे
कंही खो गई हो तुम
कोशिश तो बेहत की थी तुमहे उनसे दूर रखने की
पर तुमने उन्हे चुना था हमे नही.........😊

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