Staring at what's left of me in front of me :
She glares at me with salty eyes, barely able to see
Asks me why I cannot just be like them?
Even when the pain they inflict is an undeserved bane?
Why can I not be brutal and bite?
Bring their fallacy into the light!
Why is there a stone in my throat?
Ready with words to battle, but only tears roll out.
Where is that child who came with dreams of;
A life she knew she had the strength to make the best of
The beaming sun reduced to a mere flicker
On the edge of being pushed, where it gets only darker
The light inside is dying
The little child is left crying
No shoulder for her to rely on
No hug, true enough for her to make her feel warm
She's waiting for it to get cold enough
Where she freezes into time and withers off
Not looking behind at the child she has drowned;
In the salty water that carru the storybook of wounds unbound!
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My little Angel
My Precious, I want to keep you Safe
You teach me to always have faith
Your innocence, I want to cherish
Your demands, sometimes gibberish
But, I wish to fulfil them before my time
Your are the one, who is truly divine
My inner child, I wish to always keep you smiling
You are the centre of my entire being!
Never let you go
Never let you down
A promise to the Little Me,
I never wish to see you frown
I'll always keep you smiling bright
Fiercely guarding you, Oh! So Little one!, with all my might!
In the corner of my heart, you are residing;
My beacon of joy, in your eyes
I see the world gleam!
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Everyday bit by bit... my integrity is broken
Everyday bit by bit... my confidence shattered
Everyday bit by bit I'm losing the person I used to be
Everyday bit by bit.. I'm wishing to be closer to death
Everyday
Bit by bit-
Everyone says you are forty
They say its time to be naughty
They make it sound like you are a teen all over again
But they forget, forty comes with a lot of pain!
Everyday you see them become frail
Everytime you meet, don't they seem a little pale?
Smallest of joys have to be created
Memories of togetherness have to be repainted
Why does ageing have to be cruel
Why can't you become wiser with the same guidance;
To which you are habitual
Why can't time just ebb for them
Why can't you stop and hold their hand?
Like they did when you had your falls
Now it seems so difficult to answer their silent calls
Why does one have to see their pain?
Why does one have to come to understand they won't remain?
Why do I want my time to stop?
Why does this evil truth glare at me non stop?
I don't want to accept this reality,
I don't want to come to terms with it,
I don't want to see my Hero drown:
I want this pain to somehow bury into the ground!-
Sugar,Spice, they seem so nice
But before you indulge,
You may want to think twice!
Your future self,
You don't want to suffer the pain!
Alive but never fully Sane,
Neuropathy and Nephropathy-
Amputation and Dialysis
Will terrorise your days and add to your strain
A life You will disdain!
Remember the Golden rules of health,
Follow them to safeguard your true wealth.
Move around to make it count
Exercise will save you, there's no doubt;
Our Ancestors got it right
Simplicity is life's true Might!
Roti subzi dal and rice,
Salads and soups will also be nice!
No fads, no superfoods,
Satvik ahaar will set the mood.
Let's get together and stop Diabetes in its tracks,
Let's teach our next Generation,
it's not an impossible task to crack
To longevity and a vibrant you,
A humble plea,
Life's beautiful, Make it work for you-
Evil forces weigh us down
The power of good seems to be nowhere found
The dEVIL is clouding our minds
But, GOoD is here;
An awareness that you must never let yourself go blind.
Into the darkness in front of you;
Cos' His light is always shining within you.
Guiding your path, you must never go astray;
Even when you are tested, in the most painful ways!
Close your eyes and look inside
By the rules of kindness, you will abide
Never lose yourself to your outer beings
Cos' within you, life is always looking for a meaning
Your soul is trying to rise above all this
Embracing the path to eternal bliss!-
The 🌟 came down from heaven,
Fell into my arms👩🍼
Became my biggest strength,
Yet the only weakness
That brings me chaos and calm
Makes me who I am,
Helps me Cross hurdles I never thought I can
My Golden girl, you are my lucky charm
May you be protected from all harm
May the light guide your journey,
The flame of ambition, keep it burning
Even if you fall, remember time is always turning!
Follow your dreams, And make them real
May you be shielded, from all thats evil
Love you my child, love you most
My guardian angel, you are, so I never am lost
I am, because you are
I'll be with you always, near or far!-
I know it hurts
I know you are in pain
As much as u try to speak
There's nothing more to explain
Your destiny is written
This hurt will remain
Frowns and smiles
Now seem like a game
Trust HIM, He will help you out
Like he always has, there's no doubt!-
You are worthy
You are wise
You never put on a disguise
You are kind
Of sane mind
A diamond
So rare to find!
Stand up straight
Hold you head high
You are a Queen Of your Mind
Don't let anyone inside
Stay still stay calm
It's not your drama
Introspect and decide
Do you want Their Karma?
You are funny
You are smart
You've been different
From the start
Never change
Never give in
Allow your pride to sink in!!-
Duty calls, and here I go again
Leaving behind a piece of my heart,
My only pain
Guilty to have been so efficient
Giving her the hurt that's not meant
I know it's going to make her better
But what about my emotions as a mother
I'm drowning into the deep ocean of silence
Cos'no one seems to want to understand my stance
Stuck between sad shades of grey
A tug of war between priorities is at play
Mine and theirs seem to clash
God please, bless my little heart I'm leaving behind
I'm giving her enough pain, You be kind!-