Duty calls, and here I go again
Leaving behind a piece of my heart,
My only pain
Guilty to have been so efficient
Giving her the hurt that's not meant
I know it's going to make her better
But what about my emotions as a mother
I'm drowning into the deep ocean of silence
Cos'no one seems to want to understand my stance
Stuck between sad shades of grey
A tug of war between priorities is at play
Mine and theirs seem to clash
God please, bless my little heart I'm leaving behind
I'm giving her enough pain, You be kind!

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नन्ही सी चिड़िया
पापा की गुड़िया
मम्मी की परी
चाहत थी बस इतना ही

आसमान को छूना
पंखो को फेलाना
तारों को चूमना
बस उड़ते ही रहना

एक दिन आया राजकुमार
घोड़े पर सवार
लाया सपनों का खजाना
खुशियों का पिटारा

पंखो तो मूंड कर
आई वो ज़मीन पर
सोचा के इस प्यार के सहारे फिर आसमां से मिलूंगी
एक सपने जैसा वक़्त बिताया
एक सुहाने सफर की आस लगाई

— % &आँख खुलि
सपना टूटा
एक सोने का पिंजरा देखा
ना पंख फेलाने का मौका मिला
ना आज़ादी की हवा मिली
बस आंसुओं के समंदर में
डूबरी रही नन्हीं चिड़िया मेरी

पापा की गुड़िया
मम्मी की परी
चाहत थी बस इतना ही!— % &

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Mirror mirror on the wall
Everyone has asked who is the fairest of all

When I look into your eyes
I see the scars that were given by lies

Mirror mirror on the wall
I only hear me asking why; and when will I again stand tall?

When I look into your face
All my thoughts run in a crazy race

Mirror mirror on the wall
I only want peace, will mind ever stall?

When I see you standing in all your grace
I see a little child, who grew up even if she didn't reach the age

Mirror mirror on the wall
Will time ever wait for me to recover from my fall?

When I see your hardened palms
I see the love they poured when others depended on her arms

Mirror mirror on the wall
Will I have someone whose arms will soothe my soul?— % &Mirror mirror on the wall
The image you show her still stands tall

You are her solace,
You are her truth
Her keeper of secrets
Her heart's treasure trove!
— % &

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The day I close my eyes,
I hope that you realise;
I still want to be around,
So please don't put me to the ground!
I still have many sights to see
Give my eyes to someone who needs!
My heart will yearn to beat;
For someone I am yet to meet!
My liver will still be strong;
To make it right for someone:
Where it can still belong!
My kidneys will be full of life
To support a child, husband or wife!
My hands will still wish to touch
The soft skin and everything else, pretty much!
Please don't let me die as yet;
Let me live through the one I've never met.
Don't reduce me to ashes or a bag of bones;
I wish to reside in many a homes!
Bringing smiles to the lucky few?
I wish I could give more, before my time was due!
Now I still wish to be around;
The final purpose of life, I have found.

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The last time I cried
Was when I died
You must think I've lost my mind
Here I am writing these lines

The girl who played all day in the mud
Came home only when mom made a fuss

The girl who smiled from sunrise to sunset
Was told that she was the happiest human one has met

The girl who went all out to help
Was on her toes when her mates needed her , she felt

The girl who hadn't seen pain
She saw the world through the rose tinted glass frame

The girl whose innocence was a feast to many eyes
Never was burdened knowing the hurt of lies

— % &She is the one who died
Now she has nowhere to confide

Minces her words so others are comfortable
Buries her pain so others feel fine

Quietly she burns her desires
So others don't feel the fires

Smiles in a crowd but feebly cries
In her lonely heart,
she wails behind the chirpy disguise!

The last time I cried
Was when that little girl died.
— % &

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There's an unknown burden you carry
You know it isn't yours, but still you worry
It fills your heart and mind
With thoughts and pain unkind
You wish to cry but tears won't flow
You wish to give the feeling words,
But your language isn't enough to do so!
Everyone is battling their pain around
You seem to be the only one they turn to
Patient listener,
Thought provoker
Clearing their path with your wisdom
Calming their worries with your nature so loving-some
But now where will you go?
Everyone is ready with their claws
Waiting for you to err
Your walls they are waiting to tear

But fear not darling
I know it's because you care
Your love and kindness
Is only to share
There's someone always watching over you
He holds Fort, no matter what others wish to do
Have faith and march on
You have Him as your armour
Have Courage and face it
You have Him as your Guide
Follow your own path
Follow your own ways— % &The End is near
And you will never look back at these grey days!
— % &

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Why is it that people only give advice on how to control anger
Why is expression not allowed
Why keep the fire burning within
Why is it that, we make rage a Villain.

Rage is good,
Anger is fine
Expression will only clear your mind

Suppression will make it toxic
The poison will make you sick

Write it down
Or walk around
Make a note
Of what you are unable to verbally quote

Take a break to clear the space
It's alright to be unable to face
The demons you have unleashed
The suffocating thoughts you just released

Sometimes good
Sometimes bad
But once out, you will be the judge of that
Choose what truly defines you
Forgive yourself for those that aren't you
Ask for help if need may
Courageous are those, who accept their unpleasant days!

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The demons will try to pull you down
They'll don a different role, a different gown
Everytime they shall test your courage
To intimidate you, they will set a stage
Never fear any audience
Never shy away from any experience
Stay true to your inner light
Keep your truth always in sight
Then you shall know
How easy they're to overthrow
Fewer words shall do the trick
They'll have no choice, but to accept defeat
Even this is a part to salvation
That's life's ultimate ambition.

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Like a Phoenix from the ashes she Rose
Just like dark clouds,
She believes sorrow also goes
Inner fire being fed with all her might
She's back to give a tough fight
To take her stand,
She now needs to hold no one's hand
Her teacher resides within her soul
It's guidance has helped her to become whole
She now relies only on her inner voice
Trusts no one, and yet maintains poise
She is you, You are her
A conviction, no one can deter!

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