▪︎• Filth •▪︎

I tried my best
Just to impress
Yet you still take me,
as a disgrace
I abandoned the world I love,
Just to make your words weigh

Was I that predictable
Or you take me as a easy prey
Is it that suffocating
To look in my eyes everyday

A pawn of chess
A coin in toss
Do you take me as a game
To entertain your loss

Am I that filthy or
Was I just never part of your love anyway..

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Do you see The black in blues
Do you see The good in glooms
Do you smile when its nothing new

Do you feel like Fading too

I walk along the waves of life
Every inch at the verge of sinking in tides
I feel the pain in my eyes
The world feels like a wounded Knight
I try to heal
within my heart
Trying to mend every broken part

I fall so deep
With no hand to grip

The glass I held
Was broken by the stroms

What I see was never real
Everything was just to suffer in fear

The tears I held
Were far gone, frozen in dark space
Like my heart after the storm

Now here I stand
"Just a mere soul that's numb deep down .."

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After a hundred lies
I quite realized,Where I lie
The moon that lit
And the sun that dipped
The words left unsaid
Felt like mystery of arcade

My heart melt In blues
My blood feels fueled
The bird whispers the enchantment of bloom
Why does my soul still suffer in glooms

My eyes felt the love
Of the rainbow meeting sky
Of the little sparrow's in hide
Yet my tears still drops with lies

What have I done so bad to this
Humankind
To feel this paranoid

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What do you feel when a flower
You held wither and flies
The hand you held
Left this space and time

What do you feel
When a smile you loved
Now, Shine bright in sky

All it feels like
The words that now ends with
"I wish .." with passing time

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. The heart of opal .

One with the wind
I hear it call
The hearts of opal
Seamless without flaws

I turn to walk
I see a hundreds more,
Just like me walking alone

Lost in gaze
I feel the daze
The world isn't a foreign place
Within thee we are akin

We ain't made of fancy stone
All we have is
Crystal heart made of pain and lone ..

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The wind gets colder
Little hugs get warm
Some leaves shed off
Some fruits get sweeter with time

Some roads get tough
Some at ease with the blanket tugged tight
A cup of warm drink
Just, makes you feel alive
Early bird gets the worm
Just doesn't feel right
That's just winter, nevermind

The fight in thee
Is real everytime
Just a little more
Or lose the time

The blanket feels heaven
When it's time to rise and shine

The day starts
Just to seek some warmth to keep you alive
And all it ends
In lovely warm embrace or with lonely hearts of night

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"In the end "
I see my life
Turning into a maze, in a quiet laze

The maze filled with mirrors
I turn to see
Every little reflection of me
One standing so brave rightfully
The other with eyes so hazy
Filled with pain I couldn't see
I see a smile so faint in this gleam
Trying to say so much yet hides a
Hundred things

And At every end
I see another one begin
The ever lasting walk
That had only
ME
As it began

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How cruel can the people be
The words with nothing but greed
What a pity
To be a human
With these feelings called emotions

You cry they laugh
You laugh they cry
What a pity is humankind
Filled with jealousy
No place for the innocent life
People are right there to kill you any way

Days pass with lies on
You struggle just to suffer deep down
The black mist hovers
Swallowing the truth,
What a pity to join this adulthood .

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If I ever fall
Will I seek someone to help me too?
If I ever cry
Will I seek someone to cry on too?
If I ever trust
Will I get my trust broken too?
If i ever smile
Will i do it to hide away the pain too?

If I ever try
Will I end up being like you...

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♡ The cold breeze ♡
Standing in this cold breeze
I smile with a faint gleam
I try to breathe hard but fail
I rub those plams together,
Just to feel the warmth again

Blowing over it
with the hope of life again.

I stare at the the moon accompanied by stars
'Just to forget my own scars '
The little bench I see ,how i wish to take a little
Rest on it
I see a lonely daisy
Lit up in this moonlight
Thrown away ruthlessly
Yet shining so bright

I still stand there
In this midnight breeze
With the same pale face
And a faint smile all over me

I held the daisy ,facing right at me
I smiled right there, hoping I could find
What I need just like
'the daisy found me '

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