We had a drunk wine conversation
And I gave you a thousand reasons and one
Why I couldn't be yours
I told you how I think she's your first choice
How I wouldn't be an option if you had her
I won't be second fiddle.

So I'll let you go
While letting you know that
That's why I know we could have a beautiful life together
Have amazing kids that everyone would love
I could be yours
But, I choose to leave
So, I'm the one that got away

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I leaned into the distance to hold you
My arms stretched in the length of the awkward silence
Just to hold you
But the unavailability of words has dug a hole in our bond

A distance you let grow,
like a man grooming his beard
You fed the distance
You pruned its garden

Now we have nothing but space to hold
Still, I long to hold your hand
So I stretch and stretch until I'm torn apart.

---Avyanna

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Gazing at the night clouds makes me want to share that moment with you next time I look at them. 😊

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I took a break,
Smiling as if I knew what I was about to say,
Even when I knew,
Some of my words were therapeutic to your soul,
Still, my thoughts were hidden.

I stared at a picture of you,
Wanting reasons why it took long to realize your genuine soul,
But every thought gave me a smile,
As if, you were the spell cast on me,
And your smiles were the chants said.

Tonight,
You open a place,
Maybe, we'll get to take a walk,
And talk about while it took long to say out our names without placing a wall.

Why do I feel,
It was supposed to be more than this,
But I held back.
Someday, you'll smile while I watch you.
Till then, let's watch the sky paint your name in the stars.

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Staring at you when you smile, drives me to the best place in my heart.

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Someone amazing or good doesn't necessarily make them a good partner. Just cos someone is attractive, intelligent, smart, or successful doesn't mean they are supportive, trustworthy, or kind. It's not all about their achievements or accolades, it's about who they are as a person, the way they treat you, the way they support you through life's ups and downs, and how they make you feel.

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Sometimes, it gets too heavy inside...

And I wish I could hug someone and keep hugging without letting go.

So tired, even my inner voices need you to say something.

I miss you a lot. 🥺

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Hey, My Young Star

Why do I feel this distance between us?
When the flames of hope keep burning, while do I see you?
The stars no longer shine brighter,
The moon no longer shines on my path,
And I can't even feel the blood in my veins.

I feel our hearts calling us,
I feel our world crumbling,
Sometimes, I asked what's the meaning of life if you aren't there?
My heart keeps calling, where can I find you, my young star?
What path shall I take?
Who will guide me to You?

I'm slowly losing grip on it all,
My darkness stares at me from close,
I don't wish to close this chapter of us,
Should I keep calling?
Should I let the pages lead me to you, my young star?
I'm walking on every path we took together, hoping to find you someday.

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Will the eyes not reveal the yearning of the heart?

When will our hearts meet as one?

Let the midnight star guide us to each other, and the waves of the sea create a path too.

And let your warm touch bring peace to my chaotic thoughts.

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You make my heart sing the songs of beauty and happiness. ❤️

...and you give peace to my mind and steer my heart in a direction of beauty and forever bond. A love I'll always cherish.

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