"For some, sleep comes easy—a peaceful drift into dreams without resistance. For others, it's a battle they fight every night, wrestling with thoughts that refuse to rest. Some find comfort in their minds, while others are trapped in an endless loop of questions, memories, and what-ifs. What feels like a simple pause to many is a nightly war for the restless."

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Stop appearing in my thoughts,
Stop appearing in my dreams ,
Neighter i want to give you false hopes,
Nor you give it to me ...

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Want to cut every eye looking at you,
Want to cut every feet going towards you,
But I can't do nothing cuz you aren't mine,
Yet my heart remains tangled in a bind.

Each glance a dagger, each step a thorn,
In the garden of longing where I am forlorn,
Bound by the silence, a prisoner of dreams,
Caught in the echoes of what could have been.

So I watch from the shadows, resigned and still,
Holding the weight of an unspoken will,
For though you're not mine, my heart won’t retreat,
In the silence of longing, our paths never meet.

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A phase a unexpected phase . Everything going south on you . Brain not braining like before . Body not responding like before . You in the thought of what happened but you can't figure it out . Feeling like body is yours , soul someone else's. Suddenly people close to you start leaving you kudos to your ego. You want to stop but cant say it out. When for the first time you hate being strong .Emotions comming up you pushing it dowm. When for the first time self improvement means nothing serious to you . When for the first time you ask god for someone but you look around there is no one .You dont like the quite place you used to spend hours .You sleep before the night gets darker ...

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It’s not that I hate you,
It’s not that I love you,
It’s not that I don’t want to talk with you,
It’s just that right now,
I’m lost in the stillness,
Where words drift away.

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Trying to do everything right still things go wrong
Want to listen to music but can't think of a song ."Is it destiny’s hand or bad luck’s game, or just the bad choices we claim?"

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change your attitude . Show what you feel . But deep down its just me who is aware of the fact that this attitude is what brings me peace.

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The fault was mine . The fault was of my heart. That it fell for you.

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Said words give pain . Unsaid words give regret.

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I wish i could say my heart out. Without any second thoughts or doubt . But something inside me stops me everytime as if i am going to do a crime ...

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