🍁 DROWNING 🍁
My world is falling apart, I heard don't be panic
In mid bleak winter, I'm drowning like titanic
Grey seems dark, small things apocalyptic
I'm rotting in the hell GOD, why heaven isn't realistic
My head is underwater and I'm reminiscing
It will never be the same GOD with my favourite person leaving
I can't even see the bottom, for a long time I've been falling
All these emotions are attacking me
Floating on the surface, I watched myself drowning
Deep down, I'm searching on the sea ground
Tear drops, having pictures of the playground
It's tragic being part of dominoes going down
Then crumble like roses and decompose in the ground

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🍁LIFE GOES ON🍁
Fallen into a whirlpool, who knows how to swim
Every wave of life is dromedary, heaven is a dream
Don't be dregs of this lively city
Rose even in lifeless garden seems pretty
On this world's stage, we all are merely players
Fools praying for life, old cliché in the name of prayers
I tried to realize that life goes on, is that even true?
Or everyone say that so I can become a NEW
I can feel the pain overwhelming inside my body
Am I glad or am I sad, I don't wanna figure out this
Is 'everything will be okay' a lie we say to everyone
Cuz of the price we have to pay for someone
Promise me you won't mourn over my departure,
I'll enter a whole new life
Save your mourning hymn for those
who wanna spend eternity on the same side

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🍁I SEE YOU🍁
If I'm a sinner, I don't want forgiveness for my sins
What I desire is to see you face to face,
God where have you been
I seek neither paradise nor life without you
I'll plunge into the sea of fire if only I may encounter you
But if I'm banished from that spectacle, paradise is not for me
Without your countenance, paradise is hateful hell for me
I don't want paradise, I'll never cease to these petitions
Even if the splendour of the lights of immortality shut my vision
Every part of me will become an eye then,
why should I grieve over blindness
Evil imagings and dark thoughts in my heart
evanesced by your munificence
I see pretty flowers on my grave, I know I'm close to you
Free from this scent of mortality and this hue

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🍁 GROTESQUE WORLD🍁
I'm glancing at the Bible, can't understand it
Bunch of lost soul, on their feet standing
We've wounded soul, what will do the abscess
We don't wanna die young, we just need the chances
Tired of living in the depth, so I keep scrambling
Standing on the edge my feet keeps trembling
Many lost lives and the families seems stranded
Oh lord try again, take them with you who deserves to die instead
I'm confused, what to say, who to say, where to stay
I'd be on my way to the heaven, if I knew the way
I ain't tryna disrespect, I'm just lil impatient
I just need the answers,
why these people feeding on their own excrement
I think devil's Outta hell went on a rampage
Tryna understand your vision, all i see is damage

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🍁LOVE YOURSELF🍁
What are you seeking outside is seeking you
Be ground and let the flowers bloom in you
Why are you seeking love..stop it
Destroy the walls you built around it
I know you're broken, I know you're graved by that storm
But don't grieve, anything you loose comes to you in another form
That wound in your heart is ready to be healed
That void in your soul is ready to be filled
Ignore those who pulls you back towards darkness and death
Go find yourself in your heart's unfathomable depth
And fly towards the secret sky, this is love
Messengers are the pain you feel and tool to make you tough
Set your soul in fire and see who fan the flame
Yesterday you were clever to change the world
Today be wise to change yourself

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🍁MEESSED UP WORLD🍁
I think we all headed down the wrong road
Fake's real, real's fake says the sign board
Fake life, limelight paint all over the face
Fake smile, clown life they embrace
Fake prophets in the church sleeping with fake nun
Drooling all over the bed, covering shits they have done
Let your fake king sit on the fake throne
Everyone dies here, how long you'll mourn
No one lives here but everyone comes here
I see the demons who use you and they don't care
Mist all over the place, path seems unclear
Blind people leading blind people to a destination while they can't steer
You can't live here this isn't the place for anybody
You're fragile, they'll break your soul multiple times and use your body
You scream, you cry but your voice unheard
This is dog eats dog in this messed up world

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🍁 I'M FROM ELSEWHERE 🍁
Drunk i am, I'm yearning for truce
Wine spitting this ugly world's truth
Witnessing sin those white collar fool
Flowers on street, weeds started to drool
It all started in some other tavern, my soul is from elsewhere
Take me home I intend to end up there
Contaminated my wine with so many tears,
so many sorrows with so many pain
We glow in the dawn, in dusk we glow again
This flesh and bones can't be my home
I'm driving a nightmare, I can't escape from
In this darkness everything is unknown
Every face seems prey, every friend seems foe
Can't find a place to heal my wounded soul

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🍁I AM AND I AM NOT🍁
I'm drenched into the flood, which has yet to come
All my nerves, my soul is gettin' numb
I painted the faces, no one have ever seen
I done contemplation, in hand bottle of gin
I'm caught in the fire, which has yet to burn
Death staring at me on every turn
Kicked down, I'm falling, I'm crawling
Deep in the hell I'm bawling, I'm brawling
I'm stuck in the storm, which has yet to blow
I travelled thru wormhole, time's runnin' slow
Heaven to hell in blink of eyes
Haven't seen humanity where human resides
I'm locked up in the grave, which has yet to dig
Everything resides in you, nothing's outside to seek
Life isn't something I've bought
Like a shadow I am and I am not

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🍁EYE FOR AN EYE🍁
Rushing down the hill my trolley's wicked wheels
Snow and crow in my meal, those sinister dinner deals
I see all my deeds mixed in bloody soup
Not a tincture of peace, anxiety and aggression full scoop
And black smoke rising from my food
With one fault, all goods are ungood
Head is burning, hands on booze
And I'm yearning for the truce
Gypsy soul of me look thru the window, world is duplicate
Nothing inside the flesh and smiling like life is great
Jesus was carpenter is what priest told
In heaven he has throne made of gold
And here we are stuck in a pothole, hell kind
Thick air, cold nerves in my hind
I heard how Christ was born in a manger
And crucified like some ragged stranger
But I'm not afraid to die
Hands soaked in blood now it's eye for an eye

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🍁THE ETERNAL ECSTASY 🍁
Descended from the heaven by the grace of GOD
Then why we are trudging on the world's empty road
What we're seeking outside within us is the mine of gold
All born when the stars were in perfect place
from majesty of GOD
Why to forfeit ecstasy, why to run from the pain
Embrace what you have, there's so much to gain
What you have sowed, you'll reap that grain
Don't question the almighty
we humans supposed to be in our lane
World around you is the reflection of inner you
Love all, shards of your heart are the lives around you
Let your eyes sleep, awaken your heart to know the truth
There's no safer place than your heart,
GOD hid the heaven inside you

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