It's an endless loop of doubting myself and scouring my brain for the mistakes I did and ....... Realising that I'm not at fault.

-

I'm not self destructive or anything. It's just that the idea of not trusting you seems so far fetched,i start doubting myself.

-

When did we grow up so much?
Nobody knows when we went from smiling kids who fought in school and forgot it by the next period...to... Keeping grudges and removing people from our lives for good .
When did we unlearn how to push and cry and then hug our friends?
When did we grow up so much that we started sacrificing our likes for the need of others?
When did we go from fighting for ourselves to accepting everything and sobbing in a pillow.
Is this making sense to the rest of you because.. hell, everything we do seems to be in persuit of happiness and only thing that seems to be eluding us is happiness.

-

It's okay, let that hurt coming . For God.. after this, I'm not gonna need it. Let it bleed and let it cry.
Is this gonna end here? Maybe my heart is so used to the pain, that's what it craves day and night.
So,let me free it.
So,my brave heart, take it just this one more time. Let go of everyone else because I will be the only one remaining and it's gonna be enough.
Just this time,step by step.

-

You asked me if I was comfortable with your fingers touching my lips....your touch felt pure and my heart so full... I wanted to smile at the gesture and frown that I'm just experiencing it now when you could've been a part of my life since long. Need I say more?

-

I don't need you. I have my personal worst critic.....ME.

-

Can you love me without all your idealistic ideas,for who I am and what I am... Don't judge me on my traumas, Just love me for my scars .

-

This time,you can be crazy alone.i choose to stay calm.
This time I decline to be dragged in your anxieties.
You can be as lunatic as you want,you can do all that by yourself without bringing me in for the dance. I'll be okay on the sidelines,maybe feeling sympathetic for you but never in the ring to help you now because some people are beyond help.

-

A wise girl once said,"Drop your guards, step aside and let me love you,stupid."

-

I sit there,agreeing to all the plans,knowing full well they won't be carried out.
So, if you see me grumpy on the outings....it's because i didn't actually plan on it to happen😂

-