You scream and scream
Echoes the same
While still unheard
Perhaps a dream
It feels empty & hollow,
Falling into a black hole,
Seamless stream
Helpless me
Still unheard screams
In the abyss, no one can reach
The deeper you think the
deeper you fall.
Calm yourself it's gonna be
Just a dream, just a dream.
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It's all about altruism,
Like paintings in a museum.
They all said, "l love you",
Don't forget they're paid to see you.
Different lightings, different themes,
Extravagant Operas or theatres,
How could I speak while me a mime,
Acts end always on time.
You are just an audience,
Applaud or walk out.
It isn't easy to believe,
"I just came to see you. "
After all I'm just an art, not made by you.
You say, "l love you",
I bow saying, " arigatou".
-Violet Dream
(Shravya S Anchan)
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Life is perfect, but missing your touch,
Is it worth living while me still in your search.
Miss you, but whom I do even call,
Lol, Does he even exist?,they say;laugh & fall.
Memories might be erased,
but my heart doesn't have it's own brain.
Dreams are just a way to see you,
But what's even Missing when I don't even know you.
It isn't perfect, everything is just a lie,
Oh baby, how can I be such a sly?
Even my writings sound lame,
But I hope you see me as a dame.
Tulips for you, as we're perfect lovers,
I'm that extra space, while you're the one who covers.
Yes, I still say life is perfect without you,
There's no You, there's no Me,.
It's Us which makes everything Life Perfect.
-Violet Dream
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Some words are better sealed within because not everyone can swim deeply.
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As usual I took my daily bus to the office.
" No seats, again standing.", I said to myself.
I was in this deep thought, I don't remember what, but I know I was thinking deeply. I know it might sound stupid, but ya. As a result of this deep thought, l forgot to get down at my stop.
Hahaa, I had this crazy idea to skip office and grant myself a holiday.
— % &I got down at the last stop and sat at the bus stop for 15 minutes in silence.l took deep breaths, walked straight like a man with a plan, took an auto and my final destination was the beach. No one, literally no one, Even the auto wala gave me a look. I thought I would sit on this beach like movie heroine, running freely like free bird from cage, but I'm here, burning under the hot sunny beach sweating like hell. Bad idea! Then I realize I have misscalls from my incharge....
I wish I could turn off my phone, and enjoy the sun bath but I'm not their main character, office is not my movie. .. So, I took a half day leave and went back to work..
— % &-
I'm in this dilemma, is it even something...
Is it even something, the feelings I had developed for him?
I can't even write about him unlike my other crushes. What does it even mean? Maybe it was a momentary feeling which lasted for certain months, maybe the distance altered my feeling or the specific information which broke my heart, the possibility that it wasn't ideal crushing on him.
— % &It's just a crush, it's just a crush. I just calm myself saying that... I wasn't even in much pain because back of my mind I knew, things wouldn't be in my favour. People say take the chance, sometimes being cautious is the best choice. Words are powerful, we have to be cautious while speaking.. Every action has it's consequences.
Yes, there's a chance things would have worked out, things between him and l would have turned out well. There is still an uncertainty within me that we aren't meant for each other. Love, infatuation, attraction whatever whatever....... The Ending should be happy, even if it wasn't meant for me, it's still a happy ending, maybe I'm not a teen anymore, adulting teaches us it's just a crush after all! It's just a crush after all?? — % &-
While I try to find you in everyone,
In random crowds, in familiar places,
Having different physiques & races,
He seems gracious, is he the one?
He seems gregarious, is he the one?
You might be a passerby
or someone I know,
We might be past lovers,
unrecognizable flowers
where bees & butterflies fly.
I even turn back, to find you,
But are you there?
I wonder, if you're in search of me,
Or found someone thinking it's me.
I eagerly wait, every single day,
But, the pigeon only knows your way,
Knock, knock, who's there?
I will open it, until I find you, only you.
-Violet Dream
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I feel solace even with my chaotic thoughts, giving others to question my sanity
While
I'm chaotic with them, questioning my insanity.
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I have this thought when I see this particular pic of me dressed as a bridesmaid at my sister's wedding, slightly tilting my head smiling in beautiful blue KANJIVARAM. The only thought that came to my mind is that I'm going to become a good mom. Isn't it funny that I don't even know who l'm going to marry and l am thinking about my unborn baby.
Here, I am travelling to work as usual on a bus, I see a lady embracing her baby that made my soul yearn to become a mother.
Let me be clear, it doesn't mean I'm not going to love my man, no question asked, l do love my future husband even though I don't know who he is.
Well, no one knows what the future holds, but I know for sure that "What's meant to be will be. ".-
After a while, she gazed at his back, 'is it him or someone else?',she thought to herself. But, the guy went further away into blur whereas her memories of him couldn't. Now, is it his memories or someone else's ??
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