After a while, she gazed at his back, 'is it him or someone else?',she thought to herself. But, the guy went further away into blur whereas her memories of him couldn't. Now, is it his memories or someone else's ??
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Even the sad songs don't make me unhappy anymore.Sleepless nights have a new version of it, it is said that when you're happy we sleep less! I'm having a healthy, busy schedule which is better than stagnation. I don't even know what I'm writing, it's not even a story, there's no beginning, plot or end, maybe because it's real life. Continuity, that is wished by everyone. All I know is that I'm happy, no more crying for petty stuffs. I'm finally in love with myself!! When we are sad, there comes a veil in between the reality, we forget there's more to life. That veil has finally been lifted, we get to know the most important ppl in our life, our parents,siblings & some close friends..... The one who really cares about you without anything in return. Angels need not have wings, well mine don't. Hope you appreciate life, yourself and ppl around you. After all life is yours, you are yours❤
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Is it true? I'm Stuck with you is because of Cupid's stupid game,
Running holding your hand without any shame.
Maybe 'you and I' are just Angel's best bait,
hahaha, it's still a win -win play date.
Would we say 'I love you' without a love potion? ,
Already we are leeches of love and attraction.
Let's play good girl and good boy,
maybe then we will be rewarded.
We surpass all the duets,
by Showing up us matching even on blind dates.
Even the grim reaper is lovesick,
Afterall it's our love and our insane tricks.
It's not fate but we played all the cards right,
it might be evil witch's spell,no wonder she still a perfect matchmaker.
Love's ours, even though it was our curse.
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A sudden change in the lighting,
Am I the main character Or she?
Messy ponytail and her bare face,
Whatever it is made my heart race.
Why am I falling still seated?
Began to flex my Rolex
But love isn't so conceited.
Her composed face,
couldn't even catch my gaze.
Rectangular specs, looks so keen,
My only want; me to be seen.
Her hurried steps even in heels,
How does she do that no spot to miss?
She vanished right into the ICU,
Yes, Doc I see You, when will you see me?
Alas, I'm not leaving without her seeing,
At last she returned,
maybe to return the same feeling,
But I got caught off guard,
when I saw her toe rings,
Back to reality and
cheers to mood swings.
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Wish I had Dementia,
why do l still remember only you.
I'm surrounded by everyone,
why do l feel like I'm on a deserted island.
I'm standing under the sun,
why does the ground feels wet.
It wasn't even Goodbye,
why does the greetings sound bitter.
I tried to despise you,
but I'm my sole sinner.
All l want is to forgive myself,
That's the only way I will be able to let go,
Afterall, I only have is me.
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Well, it's my 1st day of 10th std. It will go better than 9th , my friends are in my class!While our class teacher entered, he informed us that we're in sec D as we had scored badly especially in Maths in 9th.We were embrassed, fr this news spread rest of sections too. One of the most annoying things about our school is the shuffling system. Every yr, new faces, our classmates change, some peeps weren't even once in my class, some twice in row and some once.
Me being an introvert, I'm not exactly I just didn't fit in, scholarly students had high stds, some were loud & pranksters while I was an outcast. Not all stories are fairytales, not real life. — % &I took counseling sessions last year. I even started having a major crush on this guy. Let me be clear, my crush wasn't responsible for my mental health.
Girls are girls' worst enemy, true in my case. My ma'am changed the seating arrangement. Therefore, l sat in the corner of 4 seated bench beside the Snake. For no reason, that girl hated me, she ignored me & only spoke rest 2 gals in the bench. I tried speak to her, blank replies, funniest thing l corrected her wrong answers of her Hindi test, so she that scored better & just make her like me. No use. I remember we had an activity where we had to works in pairs, automatically she was my pair, all she did was ignore, did all discussion with the other 2 while I did it alone. In the whole class, I felt invisible.
I'm someone who would suppress my feelings. I started skipping meals, l didn't get my periods for months and I would throw up after breakfast.l also had crying episodes, tried to skip school, nervousness, afraid of people & even tried to kill myself. — % &My parents were obviously worried. They tricked me in meeting a psychiatrist. This PG doc, he was assigned kept asking ,"why you are here? " I was angry, I was forced to be there. I was taken to diff rooms situated in diff floors, this doc then even social worker spoke to me. That PG doc, he even whispered into one of the senior docs' ears, "She's a psycho. " Tbh, I was angry hearing him say that but I knw I tested lot of his patience. I finally opened up & spoke.
On my next appointment, l was assigned to a lady psychiatrist. I even crossed paths with him, the one who called me 'psycho', he greeted me with a smile, I was calm & returned a "hi". I was given anxiety tablets, taught relaxation exercises and they asked a bunch of questions about my fears ,to rate my fear level in % etc etc. To my surprise, I met a few of my schoolmates attending the same psychiatrists. I felt like I wasn't alone. I'm better now. I'm grateful to my parents and my psychiatrist and also to the doc who called me psycho!
P.S: She, that girl wrote an apology in my slam. — % &-
Hey, I got married. I met Adv. Ajay Raj a few months ago in an arranged set up. Within 3 months we got married, well his mom was dying from cancer, so we hurried the wedding. Yes, Ajay is a nice guy, we used to chat online before our wedding. It's been two months already of our marriage, we didn't even have a honeymoon, I'm not sad, his mom's condition worsened, daily hospital visits, her chemo sessions, his court cases, he is busy. Weirdly, we didn't speak much.
My friend Mitali got married last month to my old crush, they dated for about 5yrs, now finally got married, yes I was just a passerby. It was hard to watch him with her. He was never mine to began with. After their wedding, they moved just next doors. He even wore a pink sherwani to match her wedding lehenga and obviously his proposal by standing on one knee. To be frank I envy her.
One fine day, Ajay & I after our temple visit, we stopped to have ice-creams. Here, comes the perfect couple, Sharul & Mitali feeding each other ice-creams. I felt like throwing up. Later, I did meet them few times, I got busier as I got a job, even if it's part time, I nearly got to see them.
— % &I felt like Ajay didn't love me, he was usually busy. There was no romance between us, I know it has been hard for him, he lost his mom & him being busy. I was frustrated & finally tears fell on my cheeks. To my surprise, he embraced me from behind. We sat on our bed and had a heart-to- heart."l knw, I wasn't a good husband. I knw it wasn't easy for you. I knw I never confessed to you, but I want you to knw nw that I love you, I care abt u & l want to u say all ur worries. We will get through it together. ", he assured. I leaned forward and we had our first kiss. He even took a week off from work for our honeymoon.
A few months later, we got know that Sharul & Mitali are getting a divorce for whatever reason. Then I realized the perfect couple which I thought was, wasn't perfect after all. Ajay & I are happily married with 2 kids. Obviously, we still have our ups and downs but we never lose hope.
Signing off
Mrs. Ajay. — % &-
The yellow rose I gave you,
turned pink for you.
Sorry, I only saw the thorns,
I wish we could turn it red.
It was 12a.m & the shoe fitted her,
while my rose began to die,
Neither came a beast nor I was a beauty.
Tarot cards, astrology and numerology
couldn't fix our fates.
Now, you are hardly mine,
but I'm fine, am I?
Bike rides and trek dates with her,
While I'll write poetry further,
so that someone mine can read it.
Maybe he will turn the yellow rose into red not pink.
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Just after my Dandeli college trip, l had got prior permission to attend a wedding in Mysore. We took a bus to Mangalore to catch a train to Bengaluru with her friend, Kari. Looks like we had to pick 2 others from Bengaluru then we finally reached our Destination.
We were welcomed by the Fortune JP Palace Hotel with a drink, that's the taste of luxury l thought. The zoo was the best part of Mysore, 3 km walk with animals, well to my surprise I met MSW mates. Lunch followed by the newly built aqua world, I didn't like it much and some garden with lights. We Played UNO till 12 am in the hotel room, then went off to our respective rooms to sleep only to wake to scrumptious breakfast buffet, Yum!
Swipe ➡— % &Well! hehehe we're late to The North venue, where the wedding was held. It was followed by their reception and lunch. Freshly cooked food from sweets, savoury all served on banana leaves, concept of sweets served first was new to me. Shadhi done,but we still had time. For desert, we wrapped up with bonsai garden, kushagra where we took pics with parrots and obviously the Mysore Palace. We took a round of the Nexus mall, bought sneakers, filled the tummy. Here it comes , these guys' started talking about how the bride's unmarried elder sis was prettier than her, I was actually grossed out. That comment kept me thinking, when my sis marries, will they compare us??
P. S: Got to know in Hubli dialect, 'sari' means move aside.
— % &-