Stop for a while and ask your self how r you doing?
Pamper yourself with that watch you we want to buy for long
but cost a car EMI...
Go out and have that one drink with yourself
you are planning for months
but couldn't get that extra one hour...

Wear that shirt which you have bought last year
but didn't get approval of your partner
due to tint of pink...
Post that reply about pseudo-feminism
which bashes men on the name of equality
but stuck on drafts to avoid hurt and hatred!!

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When I sit and recall the first day of meditation, which I choose to start with Getting Started session of 5 mins, all it brings the memory of discomfort in me. I was not able to sit still and close my eyes and focus on the instructions in calming voice of Dr. Sham Bhat. Though I was not able to even close my eyes for 1 min consciously and that has been an issue with me since childhood, I felt the voice calming and relaxing. I was adamant that I would go through this session..so I peek whenever I couldn't handle the pain. It was the second most difficult 5 minutes of my life which I have chosen willingly. Somehow I go through the session and decided no matter what I will complete the series. Did I complete the series ? Yes, I did....How we will see ?

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Meditation has been always unknown and scary territory to me and here I completed almost a quarter. There has been different phases, few easy, few painful, few frustrating. Yeah! it's a shout out to celebrate such a small achievement. I had never thought that I would decide to choose this path..as I was too scared of what I can see, whom I can meet or what I can find..inside me. The shadows of evil, the sunshine of goodness, the hunger of desires, the contradictions between faith and knowledge specifically experiences, the fact of growing up, changing, being corrupt and what not! Though its painful, disturbing at the beginning , but its calming and joyful. Thanks to Dr Sham Bhat and his online sessions on cure.fit , I have found a new interest and learnt self-love through this practice. It has been a series of experiences which reflects my inner or mental state through vibration... which I am going to post as I go... Join the journey or share your experiences about this beautiful art.

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Like every other night...Nothing new,same old stuff appealing to be discovered.A nicely decorated pink and purple color tent was standing tall with display of moments of smile and laughter with you just next to the shambles of dreams and desires of our togetherness. These two fascinates the subconscious most. One appeals it with the enchanting beauty and other calls for the attention with all left in itself to be rebuild. That inner lane, fill with darkness and robbers was filled with the giggles of those very few thoughts which are ready to compromise their virginity in the hope of impossible erotica.
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Yeah that giant damp , stinking with guilt, remorse and regret urges for getting burned... always outcries and kills the experience of the bazaar with its stench...by just being heaped there, neither increasing, nor decreasing... As soon as subconscious exits to it's way, it prays for the decay of heap untill it falls asleep and enters to the realm of dreams.

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But their scars do!

And So do Their wounds!

And you always got to choose

The Wounds ?
Or
The Scars ?

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Make you sleep and rest in you chest every night!

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The unasked question
Lingering in my thoughts,
Evey day!
Wandering in my dreams
Every night!
Answer to which I want to know
My heart is dreading though..
In my silent screams!
If Yes.. is it the way I did..
Trying to find you everywhere
In everything
But in vain..
Looking for a sunshine in the
thunderstorm amidst rain..
Or is it me.. drenching in despair
With Every passing year...
Just to know...
"Do you miss me ?
Did you ever miss me ?"

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Had been lying next to your pillow for years, but never got attention until you are stuck in your own head..
Yeah that one, which you have not gulped in your balcony swing.....but chewed page by page absorbing complicated truths it revealed...
Yeah the one for which you had made notes and highlighted everything you want to memorize...
Yes you got me right....the one which you have reread until you have every line by heart..
The one which has become the part of you...

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Pain is beautiful if accepted and
Suffering is delusional if observed!

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The FIVE known senses..



THE SIXTH ONE!

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