I'm not good at losing people. When someone leaves, they take a part of me with themselves. A part of my heart, a part of my smile, a part of my soul, a part of my story. And the place become empty in me. This was not just a place where I went in summer holidays, it was a place where my soul felt like home. Having delicious food to peaceful sleep on my Nani's lap, I had heaven on earth. The love she showered was unconditional, pure. She never expected anything in return. She made me feel safe in her hands, nothing in this bad world would harm me , she used to protect me from my own thoughts. I remember talking to her about my dreams, where others told I was being silly, she was the one who supported me.
Today, I am returning to that home, that empty place, where my eyes still try to search for her, where my heart craves for one last piece of food from her hand, one last time to sleep on her lap, one last time to keep her hand on my forehead and say everything will be fine. I'll miss her...-
Es anjaan sheher me,
Anjaan logon ke beech
Mai, kudh ko dhoondne
Nikli hu,
Es anjaan raaste pe
Anjaan logon ko
Mere manzil ka pata
Puch rahi hu,
Es anjaan wqth me,
Safar me log humare saat hai
Par kismat me nahi,
Mai zindagi se naraz hu.
Uljhi huvi raate...
Vo yaadein, Jo jagake rakhti hai.,
Sab kuch peeche chodkar,
Mai aage badh rahi hu.-
Yuhi muskuraleti hu
Jab bhi aapki yaad aane lagti hai
Phir ye soch ke chup hojati hu,
Hum aapko kya he lagte hai..
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Dear hecks, I caught up on you guys a little late, 9 seasons was a family which I have never seen before. I felt like I was a part of dearest heck family in this quarantine. I was so involved & binge watching it so much that, I have cultivated the habit of Brick Heck , reading so many books, I am always so excited about every little thing like Sue Sue Heck, I am as lazy yet as intelligent as Axl Heck, sometimes I am over emotional and so much caring like Frankie Heck and as Introvert as Mike Heck. With all the chaos yet beautiful memories created by this family visiting the Disneyland & the escape room & everything else. I always wonder the bad luck of the blue bag left behind everytime. Dropping the Axl & Sue to college was an emotional moment. Brick's song in the middle school graduation touched my heart. "Sue being Sue", got the most happy ending , by all luck & chance & amazing ending as Sean Donahue proposes to her finally & after few years they got married & lived happily ever after .
I miss every moment of "The Middle".-
Jab b Mai kudh se, Nafrat karne lagti hu,
Tum mujhe thoda, Pyar karne sikha Dena.
Jab b Mai, udas reheti hu,
Tum mere Muskurane ki vajah ban jana
Jab b Mai, kudh ko akele paati hu
Tum mere khayalon me aajana
Jab b Mai, sab kuch katam karne ke sochti hu
Tum mere shuruwat banjana
Jab b Mai, Marne ki baat karti hu,
Tum mere, Jeene ki vajah ban jana
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They said human life was priceless!
They were wrong.
The value of human life is very less
Compared to the crores of rupees of materialistic things,
May be that's why they don't care much about other humans as they care for materialistic things.
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Aaj phirse,
Marna bahut aasan laga,
Sab se door hojana, aasan laga
Yuhi, mudke chale jana, aasan laga
Sab peeche chod, bhaag jana aasan laga
Aaj phirse, mar jana aasan laga-
I had a lot of time today,
To think, To feel,
To realise To let go..
The question was,
To let go what ? And how ?
Because this was a feeling I wwas escaping all my life and
Today I was flying away, again.-
Suna hai
Aaj kal bahut muskurate rehete ho
Meri kushiyan jo tere paas rehe gyi thi..
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