I should have made it !!

I should have made it, you know when ??
the time I was a kid, well actually 10 !!

Why didn't I think, life isn't like ink ..
wish I could it paint it, completely pink !!

I often tend to, lose that link ..
and was used to see, everything sink !!

I should have made it, you know when ??

Circumstances to blame,
or few girls to name ..
things never again, look the same !!

Maybe it's me, who was wrong ..
wasn't in the place, where I belong !!

More than the past, the effect still lasts ..
soul within me, now no longer laughs !!

I should have made it, you know when ??

Reached out to few, whom I didn't knew ..
they tried to use me, I had no clue !!

Life's asking me to pay, and settle this due.
wonder if I can, still continue ??

Broke every day, asking what's my value ??
Lord hasn't answered yet,
n I have stopped to argue !!

I should have made it,you know when ??

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This isn't the end !!

This isn't the end,
it's just a start ..
living life to the core,
is itself an art !!

People often say,
you are ageing fast ..
that simply doesn't mean,
you are out of the cast !!

Worried about that past ??
which is way too vast ..
rather focus on today,
n simply forecast !!

Time is a factor,
never does last ..
lets live in the moment,
n have a blast !!

This isn't the end,
it's just a start ..

Add something new,
in your chart ..
remember there's scope,
just try n restart !!

Feel those emotions ?
don't kill them in your heart ..
never hold on them,
if they want to depart !!

One day we will make it,
all are smart ..
Circumstances can be dealt,
just play your part !!

Tbc
©shailesh_d_one

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You dragged me into !!

You dragged me into this,
whom do I blame ??
did you even notice,
and realised the same ??

Accused me for no reason,
as if this is a game ..
can't sleep these days,
you took away my name !!

Not carried by lust,you never did trust ..
this relationship of ours,
was bound to rust !!

More than a special feeling,
expressing was must ..
I tried all means,n ways to adjust !!

Emotions made me,burst at times ..
am a human too,
was fed up with your lies !!

Ignored my cries ??those red sore eyes ..
no one to talk to,soul daily dies !!

You had real fun,with those boys ..
including me,as if we were soft toys !!

Didn't you love me??
or used me for the show ??
was dreaming together,
we could eventually grow !!

Now that I have hit,an all time low ..
never do return,just let me go !!

Forgot to mention,you lost that glow ..
next time think twice,don't just blow !!

©shailesh_d_one

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Not yet 30,
what am I supposed to prove ??
the child within me,never really grew !!

Some dreams in life,
aren’t absolutely true ..
wish I would have been practical,
n tried something new !!

Forgot about the past,
but there’s a permanent due ..
its one of those parts,
which I just didn't review !!

Love was a failure,but tried to improve ..
now searching for peace,
‘Lord’ will you approve ??

Sceptical at times,
started working in the mines ..
kept drafting those emotions,
using random lines !!

Surrounded today,by bottles of wine ..
wish I could forgive, make her mine !!

Referred as an atheist,
there wasn't any sign ..
on expecting a day,
when things would be fine !!

Didn't find the reason,so as to smile ..
I guess life played, in its usual style !!
-Have I lost that right ??
to stand up n fight ??
where's my vision ?? n where's my sight ??

If given an option,to correct this side ..
would do whatever it takes,
n earn back that pride !!

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What's your purpose ??
What's your goal ??

What's your purpose ??What's your goal ??
Are you simply playing,a defined role ??

It feels so special,if you got a soul ..
who counts on us,
n completes as a whole !!

What's your purpose ??What's your goal ??

memories at times,might play foul ..
that shouldn't burn you,like a charcoal !!

Are you happy ?or someone did stole ??
and left you stuck,in a loophole !!

What's your purpose ??What's your goal ??

Look back at life,realise its price ..
there's so much more than,
those painful cries !!

Every moment counts,
it depends on our choice ..
no one but its you,,
who can better categorise !!

What's your purpose ??What's your goal ??

how do you rise ??by acting wise ??
or staying true by heart,n avoiding lies ??

Its a uncertain game,
but never compromise ..
people should stop by,
to seek your expert advise !!

©shailesh_d_one

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I didn't mean sex !!

I didn't mean sex,was simply in love ..
my emotions were real,
but didn't try to prove !!

She used me to,satisfy that need ..
I broke my principles,n always agreed !!

I didn't mean sex !!

On tryin too hard,to protect our seed ..
she was never ready,
so gave up on the feed !!

All she wanted was,to take that lead ..
don't think so,
was brought up to speed !!

I didn't mean sex !!

Used me for,her personal joy ..
I failed to understand,the actual ploy !!

My emotions, my feelings,
were about to destroy ..
learnt that she just left,
with an unknown guy !!

I didn't mean sex !!

Believing the fact,
she would be 'my' ..
forgot all pain,had stopped to 'cry' !!

And once again,
there's a question 'why' ??
gave it up all,n she chose to 'lie' !!

©shailesh_d_one

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You gotta know !!

You gotta know,your actual worth..
nothing comes free,with this birth !!

So many species around,on this earth ..
ensure you aren’t wiped,just like dirt !!

Well ups and downs,go back n forth ..
but you have to,hold that fort !!

Success and failure,is a part of life ..
its okay if you are single,
n don't have a wife !!

You gotta believe,
there's a purpose to live..
ensure there are memories,
before we leave !!

Own a bit more ??
be humble and give ..
without counting on the blessings,
which you receive !!

Find out the cause,
that doesn't let you pause ..
on just hearing your name,
there will be round of applause !!

Well the world will keep,finding flaws ..
but be sincere as if,
you won't break those laws !!

You gotta know,just setup a show ..
don't try to hide,let the emotions flow !!

©shailesh_d_one

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I lost in love !!

I lost in love,
one more time ..
failed to understand,
my actual crime !!

We both were close,
liked that dose ..
which filled our life,
with special purpose !!

But what was it ?
that went against our choice ?
Our relationship today,
paid that price !!

No longer together,
my decisions weren't wise ..
lord can you help ??
to stop our cries ??

People around us,
told to compromise ..
no one wants to see,
as a couple we 'rise' !!

I lost in love,
one more time..
accepted the fact,
she won't be mine !!

Give me a reason,
to visit that shrine ..
may be I was born,
to just decline !!

©shailesh_d_one

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She's in pain !!

She's is in pain,
but my main ..
Loves me without reason,
n I never complain !!

My momma says no,
things aren't the same ..
I didn't deny either,
life has suddenly changed !!

My heart is pure,was pretty sure ..
had just found one,permanent cure !!

Can't get over her,on tryin to avoid ..
Controlling emotions today,
with help of steroid !!

It hadn't even started,
n they tell me to end ..
what should I draft ,how do I even send ??

My religion isn't bad,some facts are sad ..
I don't get people,
who believe in horoscope and ad !!

Please do suggest,if I can convey my dad ??
love for her,has made me mad !!

Destiny no longer,makes me glad ..
it's okay if you call me,a spoilt lad !!

she's very special,is this god's plan ??
brought us so close,
but differentiated by clan !!

©shailesh_d_one

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Why didn't she come ??

why didn’t she come??
early in my life ??
by now I would have,made her my wife !!

unsure of the future,
am enjoying the present ..
as if there’s love,in every other moment !!

we get along so well,
its a never ending tale ..
our relationship is strong,
like an oyster shell !!

made for each other,we just can’t fail ..
feelings among us ,doesn’t seem a trail !!

why didn’t she ??
come early in my life ??
by now I would have,made her my wife !!

she's got that style,a beautiful smile ..
had forgotten myself,in a while !!

I wish there's a place,wherein we file ..
those emotions in me, which daily pile !!

Dreaming of long drive,
on an unknown mile ..
just she and me,
an no one's beside !!

Why didn't she ??
come early in my life ??

©shailesh_d_one

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