Yet again..
U proved me wrong that things r going the best way..
Yet again u proved that u never did n will never cherish my worth or even my presence in ur life..
Yet again u showed significance of ur own self n ur loved ones, making me n my family ‘the outsider people’ in ur life..
Yet again u underlined that I will never ever be ur reason to smile in this life..
Yet again u revealed ur pleasure of being alone, rather than with me..
Yet again u proved that u never chose me n will never choose me..
Yet again u showed I was never that important as it should have been n will remain so forever..
Yet again u broke me into million pieces, left me teary-eyed for crying n expected me to smile by accepting whatever u serve me..
Yet again I am supposed to forgo the intense pain of my bleeding heart n soul..
Just to keep u n this society happy..
But how far will it go??
How much more can I bear n carry this pain in my heart..
Only time will tell..but this won’t last much..that’s for sure..-
There’s nothing like ‘choose wisely’..
coz whenever someone is making the decision of their life..
They invariably put their soul n heart into it..-
Decisions..
The only thing that defines our future, besides destiny..
The only temporary power we have in our hands to shape our life..
If we take the right ones, they make us happier n the wrong ones we have to regret..
But it’s these decisions that make us more self-reliant coz no one but you r accountable for the consequences of ur own decisions..
The most difficult r the times wen none else on this planet can help u make such critical decisions..
That actually matter to shape ur future..
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Priorities..
Everyone has their own priorities..
No one is gonna change theirs to fulfil urs..
No one is gonna care if u get static coz of the conflict of priorities..
Coz everyone’s priorities r their utmost concern..
N no one is wrong also as life is never black n white..
The only problem is coping up with the circumstances..
So what u r suffering..in the end it’s always the decisions u make..
No matter u suffer or not..u have to do it all alone..-
If words could make others understand everything,
Y would Lord Krishna let the Mahabharata happen..-
When u r blamed for every wrong thing happening around u..
That too by the person for whom u did everything..
Worst part being the problem with ur transparent nature n inability to hide n sugar coat things..
A lesson for life..
Don’t follow the taught norms of being simple n true..
Rather manipulate words to keep relationships stable..-
Another addition to the sleepless nights..
Ironically when u think everything’s gonna be alright..
Life amuses u with such scenarios that force u to believer that the peace island is still far away..
All I can do is have faith in the Almighty that it will eventually turn out to be the best..
N be prepared for endless such nights in the coming months..
Hopefully not for the lifetime..
Coz u r going to be ALONE in this again, irrespective of so many supporting ppl around u..
But u n only u have to face the anguish of that detrimental storm..
Hitting u already n preparing to hit u in a much worse form..-
Tired..
M tired of trying n managing everything perfectly..
Tired of trying to make everyone smile..
Tired of trying not to be cause of trouble to anyone deliberately..
Tired of trying to keep all the broken pieces together..
Tired of trying to become the perfect daughter, sister, wife n DIL..
But if I give up, it will be almost impossible to bring me back..
Still I want to vanish as m damn tired of consoling myself that u will change, they will change n everything will be fine..
When in spite of seeing me everyday, knowing what I did, y I did..
U couldn’t stand by n understand me always, how can they..-
U promised to make it work..
To make the conditions favourable..
To talk n convince rather than me facing them..
But wen the time came..
I was standing all alone in the storm..
Wen I was crying silently, u were either screaming at me or sleeping..
Then y should I take the burden of managing everything perfectly..
If u can leave it incomplete n unhealed..
So will I..-
Life is too short to keep on holding to grudges n fears..
Letting it go makes our lives so simpler n easier..
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