A CONSCIOUS LIFE

Enslavement to the duality of life
these spiraling likes and dislikes
limiting and bundling me in lies.

ignorance confusion and chaos
karma patterns enamors like moth to light.
I'm tired of being accidental being.

burning up of karma in
ashes and smoke (राख और कालिख)
I'm dark ... awhile on the journey
choiceless awareness I seek

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Knowing not where the path
Knowing not where one is bound
I'm trying to focus but
I keep looking back .

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cycle and spirals
it's making me lose track,
I'm trying to focus,
but I keep looking back.

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I in my head
in dreams ,
in desires &
accumulated lies
undigested
runs riots...

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it's making me lose track, I'm trying to focus, but I keep looking back.
I've been trying every way to make you love me, Giving you my everything, but you're so far away It feels like l'm reaching for something just out of touch, Still, I keep holding on, hoping love is enough,
Every word, every glance, I take to heart, But no matter what I do, we're still apart.
How much farther 'til I touch your heart? How much longer 'til you feel this spark? Am I just a voice you've learned to ignore? Or do I still mean something anymore?
I haven't given up, but my heart is tired, Loving you feels like running through fire. If you could just tell me what's on your mind, I'd rather face the truth than be left behind
Every word, every glance, I take to heart, But no matter what I do, we're still apart.
How much farther 'til I touch your heart? How much longer 'til you feel this spark?

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my mind's stuck between
reality and dream
and you are the bridge
between them.

you pull me into the
chaos you love
my heart's racing
my brain's mess
the world around us
fading...

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In class, I try to take notes,
But I'm distracted by the
back of her head.
I can't even read the board,
But her, I can see perfectly.
Everything's blurred, but her,
She's the only thing I can see.

She catches me staring,
I look away,
but I'm caught red-handed.
She just smiles, and I freeze,
I hope she doesn't think
I'm weird now.
Why can't I ever act cool?
Why do always end up making a fool?
But there she is, always clear,
Even when everything else
is just a blur.
You walk by at lunch,
looking way too pretty.
try to keep it together
but my hands go shaky
i spill my coffee,
Trying to be cool,
but im a disaster. She laughs,
and i blush,
It's like my whole world is
just her smile.

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I move but you don't follow...
I'm dancing alone ,
but I'm still holding on to you.
I see you walking under the
streetlights at night ,
your shadow stretching like
it's leading you somewhere.
I followed you through
your shadows ,wait ...
I lost you in dark.
you were overjoyed
walking beside reflection.

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I'm afraid of me

outside I don't care
inside this pretending all over
running from world
running to me ...

love's only freed me from me
then I got possessed.
every beauty makes me ugly
longing to own longing for admiration
I'm echo point of me in the end.
I'm afraid of me.

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dear time

unlike your constellations Leo,Virgo... with varing time bends of influence of planets.
I admit I see through various emotions . jealousy , desire greed... age , gender , colour ...

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