Don't fall in, rise everyday!

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At times
your face pops up
from nowhere
inside my head
and billions of neurons
unite to call out your name
It echoes inside me
your name;
keeps bouncing in zig zag
from head to toe,
for my lips
don't let it escape.
so it keeps on going
till every cell in me
knows only you

At times,
at times like these I wonder
if you without hearing hear
without knowing know
that somewhere
inside someone
there's a universe
ringing with just a sound
that's you!

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I can't remember
the last time I wished you
on your birthday

what I got you
what you wore
what we did
what amma cooked

I remember the days before
I remember the ones after
but the last one has vanished
like it never happened

I only dreamt of colleg then
So, maybe it just passed
like any other day

But now every year
I want to go back

I want to remember
how I said happy birthday
how you smiled
your loopy half smile
how we laughed
how we fought

I want to remember
that one last time!

Happy Birthday!

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If I could
I would
sing and dance
and sing some more
with you
everyday

For you
make it easy
to laugh
when I can hardly smile
to sing
when I can never
carry a tune
and to love
when I don't want to

For you
told me
that I am love
that we are love

For you
make me sing
and dance
and laugh
a little everyday
even without you

Happy Birthday!

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I somehow knew
as clearly as if
you were holding a placard

maybe you actually were
I don't really remember
for we met
many memories ago

You didn't crack a smile
or blabbered
like I would
But still I knew

That I have met
the one
to dance wildly with
when it thunders
and rains

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I urged myself today,
to meet an old pal
He was a darling
But I was chasing things
and he didn't fit in
So, I drifted away
from him, and perhaps
from myself

But then I missed him
my friends asked about him
I wanted to go back
But boy, was I scared!
Would we meet like I never left
or share a stony silence?
Would he still love my touch,
or shy away from my hands?

I plucked up some courage
and went to him today
I was ready to beg
but he didn't need it
He was lying waiting
for me to embrace him
So, I held him longingly
and scribbled a love note
for him, my dear old pen!
And wondered why
I ever took a break from him?

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I remember you,
a green crumpled kurta
in the sea of stiff white shirts;
a cup of adrak chai,
among overpriced teas;

Weren't you like my old yellow quilt, darling?
one that smells of all the love we made;
Didn't your guitar sound like the morning sun,
that wakes me up everyday?
Wasn't your touch like the oversized tee,
I sometimes wear to bed?
Tell me, if you still smell of my perfume,
the one you always loved?

I wonder if I remember you well
or have memories gone astray ?
Are you, are you still
that old green kurta,
I long for in this stiff white wave?

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Love till it makes you puke!

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I dare to dream of dreaming!

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Do you remember me,
She asks,
Every time I go away
Do you remember what you were
Or have the memories gone astray?

I remember, ofcourse I do
I remember how I was,
when I was with you
I remember my laugh
that echoed in your mountains
I remember my tears
That fell on your rolling roads
I remember my bruised knees,
the stories I spun in your lap
I remember my innocence
when I was a part of you

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