I choose to supress my inner voices
that were screaming for me to give them space
give them space to breathe
And not strangle them
using the dreadful hands of societal standards.

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I wish to apologise for the wrongs I have done.
I wish to be apologized for the wrongs that been done to me.
One more than the other.

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These four walls of my room don't feel much confining
But the walls outside in the real world
seem to be closing in pretty hard.

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Let me stay to overlook the doom
Let me have my last laugh at the irony around us

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This pandemic forced me to see into the mirror which I have avoided for so long by creating a facade which hid me better than moon hid sun at night.

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It feels heavy in the chest
like I am missing an escape
like I am trapped in a claustrophobic loop which would never end

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It's getting hard to breathe right now.
It's like I am drowning in the middle of the ocean and
there is nothing around which could give me hope for surviving.

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So close to letting it all out, screaming the loudest of screams and crying the hardest of cries.
Yet without any whimpering, maybe because heart bleeds silently and doesn't like to make a sound.

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Love Yourself
Two words which can make you, more you.
But it isn't easy, is it?

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Today I wish for silent screams and tearless cries
yearning for closed walls with dark sides.

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