What’s it bothering? Questioned myself
Not sure! My mind answered

Busy city or the traffic noise, Silent room or my overthinking brain
Being anxious or tired for nothing
Maybe it’s everything that’s concerning and controlling you, Or nothing at all.

I shut my laptop on a scheduled day, took a break
Fresh air around, pigeons playing, the noise of the beautiful waterfall, green trees and Sid Sriram’s music, obviously.
The signs of nature conveying “You are doing fine”
I stop picking calls and Cancel plans, didn’t want a reason to explain
I analyze my thoughts, Take the self-credit for getting things alone
Now when I question myself what’s it bothering you
A little voice inside my head says,
“Maybe it’s nothing at all”

Give yourself TIME

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You've faked, faked it so beautifully
My love.
Why would you do that, my love
Why say things that you didn't mean
Why act in the name of love
Why live a life you didn't mean

I told you what made me happy and you did the opposite
I made wishes but you broke'em
We made dreams of future but you've replaced me
I had insecurity as a trait and you left me insecure
Priority wasn't a choice, was it my love?

You've faked it so beautifully my love
Kindness wasn't attractive to you?
Love didn't make sense? Even a little
Memories did not have emotions?
Or my writings were just words?

Somedays i lose respect on love,
Somedays im strong to wake up again,
Why this trauma for a pure soul, My love
Why have you faked it
Faked it so beautifully in the name of love.

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I need a lotus garland on my wedding day.

Do not tell me I don't have goals

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This is what loneliness must feel like she thought, after a long time
Everytime she checked her notification, she wished it was him
Slowly over time she lost trust of hearing back
She tried reaching out old contacts for a change and picked up new things which was left midway

12 days later she got a incoming video call,
Her eyes filled with tears and heart beats fast, that was the best surprise she had felt in a lifetime

Waking up at 1.49 am now, I'm not worried anymore because I know the call will be answered and I can get back to sleep in peace

You are my lullaby.

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No matter how good grains
you feed the bird.

It always wants to fly out of the cage.

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I've lost the power to write,
Literelly lost.

All I can do is read what I've written
And try to make myself happy.

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I know I overthink,
I'm aware im sensitive,
I know I'm good at playing the game
pros and cons,
I know I have a small Circle,
Don't ask me to change,
What so ever the reason is,
I know it hurts but it's okay,
What matters is,
If your not being yourself there's
no point of changing yourself
Self acceptance is all I know
Go easy.

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Do you hate the moon for brightening up the darkness.

If no,
Then why hate me for being kind🙂

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My grandmother often told me when I was a kid,

Child, Don't worry about the people who do bad to you
God will take care of them.

I don't think so that logic works or am I being a fool believing it?

For one thing I know,
Humans are evils.

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You are,

E V E R Y T H I N G

that I could ever want.

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