people like the part of me that I show them....they never loved the real me...they just like the me who put on a show and smile sweetly in front of them while I'm probably burning inside...they like the side of me that present itself to them as a smart and bold lady while may be the other side of me dying in pain....

I am to them a piece of fabric that has beautiful designs on it at the front side and the back part of the same is not liked by anyone,it is neglected because it is messy and scribbled...

people only fall in love with the concept of me as a dashing and charming girl in front of them...they never try to read my eyes...they do not want to know whether I cry....they are least bothered to know if I am broken hearted...

I don't want to be somebody's crush,I want to be loved...I want a person to kiss my scares,to heal my past and to hug me when I cry and to tell me that I am beautiful and I am loved when I would be surviving the worst period of my life...I want someone to love the me I really am and not the concept of me as a sultry woman....

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mujhe ishq sikha karke
rukh modh kiu liya reeee
rakh ke hat mere dil pe
bata kiu chor tu dea re

kisi aur ke ban gayi tu
jite ji mein mar gai hu
jo tune najar pheri to
mein tu bikar chuki hu

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and then i realized that doesn't matter
how well i spell love in the most sweetest accent
he will focus on the bad odour of my mouth

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Touch her with love
and see how she changes
from a desert to garden of paradise

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don't look into my eyes
nothing you can see
it's dark all around
just demon's place to sleep

you say you're not scared
you don't believe in fantasy
I said be aware think it twice or thrice
but you say you don't care

so look into my eyes
tell me what you see
perfect broken pieces
with your name written on it
no darkness here and there
and no demons hiding in it

have you seen my smile?
tell me what you see
i know you're thinking
it's the most beautiful lie i can wear

now why are you standing numb?
why are you so speechless?
i warned you not to see
what i wear inside me

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"liar"
he said
silence.
her heart beat two times
"i never lie"
the rhythm said
silence.

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there are some beautiful lies.
your smile is one of them

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I saw my ruins in your eyes
and still gave myself to you

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an experienced lover once said
never fall in love,you'll die indeed
I didn't listen to him and i died

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jo tum na ho to mai akela hi sahi
lekin tumhare bin aur koi nahi

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