As I step into the limits
Of my four walled shelter;
A fresh breathe of peace engulfs me.
A fresh bond of love and connection surrounds my complete being.
It's irony,
This bond looks fresh each time.
When I have lived under this roof of dreams, of love, of attachment,
for millions of years.
The green plants in the portico sways and says the usual "hello", as if we had never parted.
The small plastic tub of colorful fishes, oozes with life .
When these small friends of mine sense a usual presence.
As I enter under the roof of my dreams and memories
A stream of old stories and unfinished talks capture my reminiscence.
Here I have come home, to greet this old friend of mine.
Oh I have missed this old friend, this well wisher of mine
Like a forsaken child, I have wandered alone
and here again I find my way back to this old friend
To tell my musings of loneliness and reality.-
न तुम्हारी शिकायतें, न तुम्हारी मुस्कुराहट,
न तुम्हारी वो ज़ीद, न तुम्हारा इज़हार
अबके तो प्यार के मौसम पर जैसे लगी स्याह
न तुम रूठे, न हमने मनाया।
न तुमने गुलाब दिए, न हमने बालों में लगाया।
न होली ने रंगा हमें, न तुम्हारी नज़रों ने
न बतियाते बैठे हम, पलाश की बौछार के तले।
प्यार का मौसम यूं आया गया
न तुम्हारा कोई संदेश आया न तार।-
Here I stand
With a thought in my hands
A thought of hopes
A thought of desires
A thought of wants
Here I sit
Pondering over memories
Of a smiling face,
Of a very handsome,
and august you.
Here I sleep
with my dreams
of seeing you again,
of living you again,
of feeling and touching you again.
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Somedays are more quite then others, some days sound like crazy.
Some days are cold like an ice..some days warm like tea..
days they are, they end; approaches the night with smiling dreams..
mind it smiles are not always happy, rather they are not permanently sad.
Everything has to end, that's the true nature of it all-
My heart has many emotions.
And each is different from the other.
Each has its own concern.
Each has its own problem.
Each has its own solution.
Ah my emotions
They confuse me
Which way to go,
Which path to choose.
The irony
Emotion of love, emotion of dissolution
Togetherness, withdrawal
My heart is a maze.
It leaves me perplexed
It's closure it's opening
Ah! My heart has many emotions.
They rise and fall.
They leave me and hold.
And each is different from the other
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Everytime I leave thee
My sweet home
I leave a part of me
With you
A part of my existence
A part of my hope
My dreams
My despair
My laughter
My cry
My sweet home
I leave thee
With sweet memories
Of past
And beautiful dreams
Of tomorrow
My sweet home
Keep my memories safe
Until I meet you again
Until I live you again.-
Do you see my eyes?
The shine they have.
The love they have.
Do you see my smile?
It broadens with each thought of yours.
With each smile of yours.
Do you see the strand of my hair?
They wave
A naughty breeze blows in them.
Do you see me?
Am I the same?
No sweetheart,my love shines
through a million facets.-
Someone asked me the other day,You love him so much.But he doesn't seem to be in love with the same extent of yours. I really can't tolerate this estimation, this calculation.
No two persons love is same. It never balances. There is always a heavier end. Sometimes it is just one person's love.
Sometimes it is just your love and no harm too. Loving someone with your entirety, with just yourself, with no expectations, with no fear; is the most understandable and apt solution of your life.-
The more I see you,
The more my eyes long for you.
The more I hold you,
The more my hands wish to touch you.
This heart has it's own want and wish journey.
It seeks to the difficult but sweet ones.
It seeks to the impossible but memorable ones.
Ah! Love
Never gets misguided with reason.
It moves towards the hurt,
though the most painful
story dwells deep in there.
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One tired sleepy evening
I long for you.
This drooling evening
The heavy eyelids.
And finally the closed eyes.
There in my dreams
A golden light
That caresses me
My tired legs
My tired eyes.
Well they soothe
The joy of relaxation
flows into my dream.
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