To know my place in your life is like
Trying to escape an ever-changing maze
One wrong turn leads to another
I stumble and fall, desperately holding
On to thorns, believing they will become
The dazzling bouquets you swore to give me

Blinded by foolish promises, I push on
Trying to find my place in an ever-changing maze
Hoping each step I take won't bring me
Closer to the end of my days.

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~Frozen~

I have been gone for so long
that spring turned to winter
and I did not get to enjoy the flowers
before they wilted

I have been gone for so long
that I looked outside today
and to my dismay
the whole world seemed far away

I have been gone for so long
that I searched desperately for sunlight
and only got frostbite
because my dead heart refused to ignite

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I want to thank you for giving me a platform to express my thoughts, my dreams, my inner demons and fears.

Thanks to you I made new friends like the talented @kamalwrites, @preritchoudhary, @smara and I've met many more amazing writers.

Thanks to you I've grown not only as a writer but as a person.

I am grateful for your love and support 💜

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The past is a part of you.
But it does not define who you are.
So don't let it control who you'll be.

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I took a bite of the forbidden fruit,
The thrill of something dangerous
and new turned me into a fool.

I took a second bite of the forbidden fruit,
This time I wasn't numb and the pain felt brand new.

I took a third bite of the forbidden fruit,
The truth became clear and absolute
You were a toxic brute and loving you would be my doom.

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Don't tell me you love me,
Show me your words have meaning.

Don't leave me second guessing,
Show me a love that's nothing short of a blessing.

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The problem isn't love, It's people.

People who claim to love you,
Yet their actions leave you feeling blue.

People who take your feelings for granted
Who make you feel agitated, treat you without
respect and expect their actions to be forgiven
with false promises of changes.

The problem isn't love, It's people.

People who only say sweet things
But never anything they truly mean.
Don't fall for such people,
your feelings will never be reciprocated.

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It hurts
But I'd rather live with the pain
Than let you drive me insane.

The scars you gave me may never fade
But living in the past is a dangerous game
Like playing catch with a grenade.

Our love was bittersweet like a glass of lemonade
I should never have stayed
Maybe then I wouldn't hurt this way

But I'd rather live with the pain
Than spend my life wondering what
could have been between you and me.

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Sometimes I dream of a world
where I can be whoever I choose to be
I dream of a life that's carefree
Where I can be different without a cost
And not be criticized for my choice
To simply drift off in my imagination
To not be trapped in the ideals of my nation
To be free of all worldy expectations

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Dear Heart,
When I pick up my pen to write
Do not call out his name.

As for you my restless mind,
Do not remind me of memories best left behind.

And I say to you my tender flesh,
Do not cringe when another tries to touch us like it's a sin.

You said the past had been forgotten
Every thought of him was rotten
If that were true, tell me dear heart, mind and flesh
Why do you hold on to the memories of a man who's long gone?

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