Sitting on the couch for hours under a dim light
Meanwhile baba with a cup of milk approaching aside
"Hey baby girl, have this before I will be back"
And poor me was still with my thoughts and fantasy
My life was rotten with horrific blues
They inked my soul so scarily
I was so worried about my dreams
All those misty clouds always sneezed my journey
Ahh, I wish I could describe my feelings and imagination
Sometimes I just ask myself
Would someone still love me if I continued
To complain and explain about my pain
Will someone grasp my hand and comfort me for my dreams
Yes still some peeps assault me
Yes I stumble everyday
Yes I still feel that terrific anxiety
I'm in pain with all tears and heartbreaks
Would someone believe me,my feelings,sacrifice and pain?
I remember those helpless tears in my Baba's eyes
Those rugged hands and sacrifice
Then Almighty Whispers to me secretly
"You are a believer, stay firm on your path, for sure I'm with you to guide you, to bless you and protect you,
Trust me oh believer I'm your god,
Everything will pass"
Dear self, stay strong until you prove you are a star
Dear self you can do it, trust your God and veil your scar.
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He left
When I was broken
He left
When I was unsound
He left
When I was alone
He left
When no one consoled me
He left
When I yelled and stammered
He left
When i was weak
He left
When i was not so pretty
He left
When everyone was against me
He left
When I begged to stay
He left
When I stumbled
He left and never returned
But today I just want to thank him
For the beautiful lessons he taught me
For helping me to be strong enough
And be pretty enough.-
My heart is filled with Incredible pain
Like perforated with the spikes
I wish I had a friend like me
With whom I would share my pain, my trauma and who would be there to comfort me with a smiling face
My scary blah is going to chomp me
I have no words to explain how I'm feelin right now
Yea! Anxiety has trounced me badly.-
Hot humid days of summer june
Poor me laying on couch under the moon
Stars whispering,calm breezy left me unsound
Yes again demons were all around
"Hold On" Inner me spoke with fierce
Dear self! You are stronger and staunch
Ah those peeps haunting me again
Pushing my career my dreams in hurtle and vain
Dear self! Don't stop until you fix it
Moans and yells my baby heart
I can't tolerate this incredible pain anymore
Yes I'm a poor girl from sturdy mountains
They sneer and jeer at my innocent face
But i know I have a beautiful future of ace
I engraved my woes calmly beneath
Spoke for my self, for my rights and honour
Yes I Stumbled a thousand times
No one stood for my comfort and solace
Ahh I don't care because God's grace is always right there
Yes I'm a girl from mountains so sturdy
I have a firm belief for ensuing my destiny
Yes I'm simple in my way, I'm a quack
I adore to live the way I love to hack
Good bye fears so scary and creepy
I'm going to perceive success with hard work, sacrifice and study.-
Don't wait for someone to hold ya hand
Don't wait for someone to stand by your side
Don't wait for someone to vanish your greatest fears
Don't wait for someone to console you
Don't wait for those comfortable advices,
For the support and sacrifices
Don't wait for someone to appreciate you
Yes! Don't wait for anyone who will just have your hand and calmly tell you"hey don't worry I'm with you, you can do it, don't stress out.. "
Just focus on your self, appreciate your self
Tell your soul, mind and heart "be ready because I can do it ",
"Vanish all my poor fears all those blues and trauma "
Tell your soul "yes I can be a star and shine so proudly, I need no assistance I need no comfort".
Just live ,believe and say "yes I can and i will"...-
Yes I remember when Everyone left my hand when I was so lost. When I was searching for someone to console me they ran away
I still remember when I used to cry all night with pain and holes in my soul
No one cared like I was a gum used and throw apart
I used to wait for those beautiful conversations and for those beautiful words that calmed my soul
But no was around to hold my hand and wipe out my tears and share love with me!
Thanks to Almighty for saving me, holding my hand and loving me.
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Move on don't stop if they pull your back, yes you are strong enough to face those violent hills.
Move on ,dont hesitate if they assault you
Yes you are the best ,believe your self.
Move on ,dont surrender if they mock you, yes you are the great achiever.
Don't stop for, if they call you so weak,
Don't stop if they laugh and moan at you
Dont stop if blues cling on your shoulder
Don't stop if your heart broken,with scars and no one is there for your console
Just enjoy your own company and shake the anxiety
Be a warrior don't stop but move on.
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Maa, you are an angel of my life
You made it beautiful and free from strife
Even when I felt so alone
You was always there for my console
You made me a pious girl
And raised me like a precious pearl
I usually get annoyed when you moan at me
But I swear you are my life, my happiness and my family
I will for long remember your great sacrifices
Even if I'm dead, in heaven or above skies
I promise not to be a arrogant one
Fluffy things I will try to shun
I wish to fill all your scars
With beautiful blossoms, your dreams and desires
I Will always remember your ached heart
So I promise to love you and never leave you apart
I will remember that you was bade when you was just 12
Yes I know you faced pain, but I will always be your saviour I swear
I will Fill your life with peace, and harmony
Yes I will work hard to make you a queen or a fairy.
I love you maa from my heart
Im sorry if I ever hurt you or be so smart.
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I still remember When I was mocked with extreme hate
Everyone left me alone with my pity fate
I usually cried with pain and trauma
They proclaimed me for creating this drama
I showered love to my neers and dears
But they bade me with spikes and tears
I was so innocent,so they easily used me
Told my parents that she is a losser and a needy
But my parents hold my back
Gave me the strength and courage to crack
Then I began to love my soul
With happiness and peace I used to role
Even if something bothered me
I had a war with strifes and anxiety
Yes I felt euphoria everywhere around me
My parents were there to defend me
Sometimes I felt blues again
Cradling on my soul with pain
Waking me midnight with dramatic fear
Haunting me by those bloody walls and cheer
Then my mom holding me tightly
Again infused me with courage and bravery.
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I wish you could feel my pain
Those sorrows that haunt my brain
And those arrows that cripple me inside
Even though i seem so strong and happy
Free from trauma and anxiety
But i feel extreme pain I swear
Please hold on, believe and feel me
I just need assistance of love with sincerity
I don't need gifts and stuff
But I'm waiting for your comfort and console
I need time, your heed and aid
Yes, I'm happy for having you
And everything got has gifted me
But my sickness follows me
Made me pity, fragile and faint
I yell, I overact , I do shout as loud as I can
But my eyes with scary waves waiting for love
I cry and ask Lord why me?
Again I'm feeling so sleepy
Brain so toxic! And eyes are dizzyyy...
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