I DON'T KNOW
How it all started and
How it's all ending?,
I DON'T KNOW
How Love developed between us and
How Love developed hatred between us?,

I DON'T KNOW Whether
I have to become Selfish Or
Make them Selfish?,
I DON'T KNOW
Whether I should Help
Or Should be Helpless?,
I DON'T KNOW What to recall
The things I have done to them Or
The things they have done to me?,
I DON'T KNOW What to forget
The misunderstanding Or
The missing understanding?,
I DON'T KNOW What I am Expressing
The love in the fight
Or the fight in the love?,

I DON'T KNOW Whether
My sorrowfulness is telling these things
Or These things are telling about my sorrowfulness,....?

I thought we will be together even during difficult times
But never thought the time together would only be difficult....

Please Do Answer the Questions and
Do Question the Answers.............

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Don't try to become a good person instead be a good person

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It feels worse when you won't get
A person when you need them
And it feels worst literally worst feeling ever
When that person is the only one
Whom you need at that time.

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At times people need
To behave more mature,
than being more mature.

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For me my father was

Born like a king
Lived like a king
And at last even died like a king

He was a person who never cared
Whether he had money or not
He was living happily along
With that he kept his family always happy
Made sure there's no shortage
Of anything to anyone

Man just imagine who the hell gets
The opportunity to leave his life
In his own bedroom, In his own bed
Sleeping with all his family
Members around you.
You really have to do lot
Of good deeds to have a death like that

My father is a hero to me
His studies, career, job, assets, treasure
May not be an achievement
But the way he lead his life is
Not less than any sought of achievement

If I had to lead a life as I wish then
I want to Lead it as my dad it
If I want to love someone deeply
I wish to love them as deep
My dad Loved her Mother
If I can script my death then
I would copy my Father's.....

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Appa

As it is in everyone's life
My Father is the first hero
And the ultimate hero in my life

He's the most noble human being
I have ever known
A person with no bad qualities
A person who's never been jealous
Who wishes Good to everyone

Don't know how on the earth
Did he lead his life so happily
Even though he was unlucky
With his studies, Career,
Job, Business and Family
He didn't get anything as
Per his wishes yet he led a happy life

Dont even know how he lead our family
For these many years with
Minimal earning and sometimes
No earning also...
To lead a family whose expenditures
Are nearly double to triple
Than the income is really really great
The thing greater than it is that
He never showed it to anyone
To gain any sought of sympathy

His love towards animals was exceptional
I remember that monkeys used
To sit on his hands to take
Ground nuts and other things
His love towards his mother is incredible
Even though the main reason for
His failure in the life was his mother
He never missed an chance to
Shower her the love she desired

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This Day last year was the
Most disastrous day ever
In my life....
For the first time in my life
I wasn't able to believe
What my eyes were seeing
And what my ears were hearing
On that day I felt the shortage
Of tears in my eyes
I sat down on the road
Being broke down in disbelief
I literally felt like as if the
Whole Sky has fallen on my head

For the first time in my life
I was surrounded with tears
Sadness,Disbelief, Depression etc....
Wherever I look I used to find only these
I would see people around but
Couldn't speak even a word
I would see everyone crying but
Couldn't stop anyone..

For the first time in my life
Each hug was heavy.
They we're so heavy that
They would blast the heart
And burst the tears out..

This year for the first time
In my life I decided to not
To be happy on this day
I sacrificed my Food
Water, Film, Cricket, long hairs...
Even words (Speech)
Such that this day would never
Be forgotten in my life and
For no reason I should be happy
As This day in the calendar is
Meant to be remembered for
The loss of my father

As people do make sacrifices
In the name of God even I
Do also make sacrifices in
The name of my ultimate God
I.e My Dad

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It's been one long year
Since your departure Appa
But I honestly don't know
How on the earth I could
Live this life without you
Even the sentence
"Life without you isn't easy"
Seems to be dull
Because life without isn't a life.

Literally we somehow survived this year
Surviving without you isn't
Surviving it is actually struggling
Each time whenever I receive
A call from home it does
Reminds me of you and the struggle

I can't express how it feels without you
But literally no other thing in this universe
Can hurt more than this feeling
There are many nights when I woke up
Seeing you in the dream but even
Dream knows that it's not real
Even my subconscious mind is
Not able to accept that you are alive
To that extent the pain has been spread

I am not even able to listen a song
Regarding father, not even able to see
Any video regarding father
Not even able to utter the word Appa
Each time I do it a bit of tears
Fill in my eyes

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Night without you
Doesn't seems to be a Good night...,
Dreams without you
Doesn't seems to be Sweet Dreams...,
Resting without hearing
Your voice seems to be Restless...,
When I open my eyes I wish
To see you revolving...,
To say in simple words
Without you I feel like
There is no Air to breathe......


Please don't mistake me
Here you isn't a girl or a person
It's not even a creature
Here you refers to Fan(Ceiling Fan) 😜

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Do Forget to Forgive
And Do Forgive to Forget
(Forget the pain and
Forgive the mistakes)

At times do forgive yourselves
For forgiving them...

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